Cedars,
I sincerely hope that Spiritalk and yourself will not mind it if I also wish to respond to this posting, but I could not stand by and do nothing when I feel that it is so important for your future as a psychic or medium that you should know that this person is abusing his position as your teacher or spiritual facilitator to the extreme. But not because he is in any way a bad person in himself (understood?).
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I am not going to take back what I saw of him being on a stage.
I am not going to take back what I felt about him being low in energies and so on. |
And neither should you have to. If you do give in to his demands to go against your own feelings that the symbols being given to you do not contain genuine insights into this medium/psychic's personality as I believe that they do, then he is effectively asking you to not to trust and to show no sense of respect to your own inner guidance which was responsible for bringing them through you in the first place. To agree with him as if he knows better than you what these things mean would essentially spell the end of your future as a reader as your job is simply to pass on what messages you receive as accurately and completely as is humanly possible, adding nothing and taking nothing away.
If he is as experienced in his field as you suggest that he is, he should be the first person to realise that on many occasions the meaning of a particular message only becomes evident over time. He asked you to focus on certain aspects of his life at a greater depth than you otherwise might have done in the past (which is excellent advice for any reader who wishes to further develop their own reading abilities), then immediately rejects what you bring through possibly because he is uncomfortable with the idea of being a stage medium where his work is opened up to public scrutiny and he could be potentially revealed to be anything but as capable and confident at doing this, as he would like you to believe that he is.
What a strange thing it is for a so called mentor to first encourage his student to extend their gift, then negatively criticise and put them down when they are faithful to the morally correct use of it. My advice based upon what you have told us about him is to recognise that being the most accomplished reader/psychic or medium does not make any of us immune from the usual human weaknesses, and that while he may have exceptional sensitivity and have a wonderful future as a reader, he is projecting his own insecurities on to you in a manner which I feel is responsible for any teacher to do at their student's expense.
He should have just told you outright that he is unable to accept what you are telling him at the time, and while there is the real possibility that you merely with the very best of intentions misread what messages you received for him (I am sure that even he has his bad days when nothing much seems to be working as we all do) and put what you gave him on the back burner for some future time when it's significance to him may become much clearer than it is at present. THere is also another possible explanation that his appearance on the stage in your vision is meant to be taken in a purely symbolic sense as the processes involved in dreaming and giving readings while you are wide awake are very similar in many respects.
In dreams being on a stage is thought to mean that your performance is being closely analysed and put under a microscope. All the world is a stage, and we are just actors or players who are on it. I feel that your assessment of his energies being lower than they should were spot on, and that you are the innocent victim of his own insecurities and fears about the proper use of his intuitive gift in the future. I sense that while he is a very effective and accurate reader, he is unwilling to admit that just underneath the mask of false courage and confidence which he prefers to present to the world at large, he is nowhere near as secure about his gift as he likes to make everyone else think so.
Spiritalk will no doubt have much more to say of wisdom about this coming from her own accumulated experiences as a inspired speaker and spiritual Lightworker, but I feel that she will only confirm and fully support what I have suggested is happening with your mentor. I think that you have unwittingly exposed a very raw nerve with your reading of him, and that unless he is made to see that he is doing you damage as his student by continuing to keep an open mind on the possible meanings of what came through for him, then honestly I predict that he will not be doing this work any longer after 12 months has passed from now.
His energies ARE getting dangerously low, primarily because he is allowing his own fears and insecurities to be projected onto you in a way which is grossly unfair to you, and which could potentially if you chose to take his comments far too personally and too much to heart (which I believe you are not going to) cause you to give up completely on doing readings, when your work on these forums is of such a high quality as shown by the respect and appreciation of the many members you have helped over that time.
Please therefore take it from someone like your friend and loyal fan here (me), who greatly admires the valuable contribution you continue to make to this website and to the people who visit it that you have not made any errors in passing on what insights have come through you pertaining to his own human weaknesses as accurately and without any embellishment of your own making which might alter it's meaning. This does not mean that you should not listen to what he advises you to do from now on as your teacher, but rather that you need to use a greater degree of discernment in sorting out what is useful and good advice from what has inevitably been coloured or distorted by him being as fallibly human as the rest of us all are.
I seriously doubt that his first experiences as a platform medium will be negative purely due to a lack of ticket sales. If this does or already has happened to him, I sense that what you read about him is probably a very big part of the reason why he was or will not be successful at doing this. That is of course unless he is more willing to be honest about his typically human reasons for telling you that you are wrong in what you brought through in your reading on his behalf.
Take care and please do not permit this to make you lose heart as a reader, as I for one would really miss you if you did.
Yours respectfully,
eye_of_tiger
