Just wondering, because I've read very little, if anything about this on MB, and that surprises me.

Have any of you had spontaneous Kundalini awakenings?  I had mine about two years ago.  I'd never even heard of the word Kundalini, had no idea what a chakra was, had taken one yoga class in my life and didn't think much of it, and was pretty much a complete skeptic about people who claimed to see spirits, have premonitions, etc.  But gradually (not THAT gradually) it was as if the sky started to split open and spill out all the beautiful--and occasionally frightening--things behind it.  I saw things I'd never seen before, and amazing things happened on a daily basis, and I started to see (and eventually be able to talk to) spirits.  The world looked (still looks, although things are not quite as vivid as they were at first) more beautiful than it ever had.

Fortunately for me, I knew right away who was trying to get my attention, although I never expected in a million years that I'd ever be able to see or talk to him again.  And, thank God, he's stayed with me to guide me through it all, beautifully--even the really scary parts, which are now pretty much gone.  I can't imagine what it would be like to go through something like that without someone like him beside me.  (Of course, at first I wondered if I might just be going psychotic, but he got me through that, too.)

I know that I've been given a gift that others try for years to attain; I'm still not sure why it was given to me, but I consider myself blessed.

Has anything similar happened to any of you?  I often wonder if anyone else out there sees the kinds of things I see on a daily basis--wide awake, in daylight and in the dark...things like bright, beautiful sparks in the sky that seem to fly toward me and then look like sparkling eyes, symbols, images of animals and people, colors, lights.  My assumption is that these things are individual to the people experiencing them, so that they make sense (when they do make sense).  I also have a theory that many people who are diagnosed as psychotic have simply had similar "awakenings", but were poorly equipped to deal with them--seen from  the "wrong" perspective, depending on one's life experiences and personal beliefs, they can potentially be devastatingly frightening.  (One problem I can understand is that one might be afraid to tell anyone because he or she is afraid of being thought insane, and therefore has no support.)

I'd just love to hear others' experiences and thoughts on this!  It seems that being able to talk openly about it might help others who haven't been as lucky as I have.

Doe

Hello Doe.


 Are you talking about that snake in the spine thing happening?  Perhaps if you explained it a little more for us who really don't know. If we don't know we might not know if we had those "Spontanous Kundalini Awakenings".  

Safe Journey

Okay I did some researching.  Oh that beast of ours.  Interesting when it comes out huh?  While you were fortanate not to have a psychotic break down. I was a full blown LOON.     The inner struggle begins.  War within ourselves at an all time high.  No happy flower trip for me I'm afraid.  No, I had to wrestle that snake, and find me a balance.  I too had my guide, but in this not even my guide could go where my mind was taking me.  I began to punish myself for the thoughts, the things I felt inside. Memories of this past that I had to deal with on top of this, having those triggers full blown.  Feelings of coldness, and having to jump into the hot bath. Over and over.  I have a good idea what had caused this awakening.  This time I was caught off guard, and unlike the other times when it tried to awaken...I was not really in a place mentaly to overcome it.  I still had a break down.  But I was able to pull through.  This experience was hell.

Then I hear of the youngins trying to unlock it without full knowledge.  Fine line you walk between sanity and insanity.  I do not talk about this because I fear for those who may not understand fully.  I may not know the correct terms for what transpired.  I may not know the ritual they use to awaken the snake.  But I do know that once awakened, it is a battle for your mind.  You feel like you did some coke, which always made me feel like a GOD.  I felt drunkened with power, without a drop of liquor.  I lusted for more.  Hightened senses.  Insomia.  Seeing more than usual.  Hearing thoughts more clearly.  I wished to make all who wronged me suffer.  Tear them from limb to limb.  Then I felt so bad for feeling so much hate.  Was I really as dark as they say I was?  I would rather die than hurt any other soul.  Thus the battle began.  People who may have read my other blog during that time had seen my mind totally deteriate.  What made me come back to my senses?  I had to learn to love both sides of me.  To accept the good and the bad.  And somewhere try to find that balance.  I am light as I am dark.  The snake reminded me of that.  My little monster who I always called.  I always joked that I kept it in check.  There is a deeper side of me that I rarely show to myself. Having to see that was mind blowing.  Could I love me even if I knew it was there?  I had a hard time knowing the truth that lied within me.  When I snapped out of it, things were more clear.  I felt this peace inside me like none other.  But I will not glorify it.  For those who have it happen by chance like for me.  I was not prepared for it.  I know that I may not have ever been prepared for such an experience.  But I almost lost my life due to the loss of mind.  My body suffered greatly.  Sickness, flu like symptoms.  I was toxic and didn't know how to cleanse it. My guardian tried to help, but I was in such a state that I even lost contact with him.  I couldn't hear him anymore until I came out of this.  It was very frightening.  And the person who triggered knew damn good and well what they were doing.  He was trying to have me unlock him, not knowing that it would be me that would be unlocked.  Using my energy for his gain.  Since I draw and amplify.  Just  too much energy made him extremely ill.  Couldn't handle it.  And I was unexperiened with the release. Too much will make you sick.  Too little and you are sick too.  I have yet to figure this all out. Since I do not practice anymore.  Not in this life anyways.  So to all those wishing to use this to unlock, please beware.  Take it easy, slow and steady is the key.  Too much too fast and you risk having a really bad experience.  From what I see others do not have this problem.

Thank you for sharing your experience Doe.  I am glad that your experience was a more possitive one.  Looking forward to read other people's experience too.  Take care.

Safe Journey

Came back to add:

For my fellow energy people.  Safe guard your heart.  For there are wolves out there who wish to use you.  Be careful for those who play with energy, expecially when they tell you that they love you.  So when you think that you are being loved you might be blinded.  I thought it was just two souls loving eachother. Naive, my heart lead me astray.  Once they are done, they throw you away with the trash.  My guardian tried to warn me of this prior to this courtship.  I didn't listen.  So desperately I sought to be loved.  They target people like us for a reason.  

Hi, Crow,

First, you reminded me of something I wanted to say.  I tend to be very wary of giving things like this labels, and when I used the term "Kundalini awakening" it was more as a kind of shorthand for similar experiences.  I don't know if that's "technically" what I had--I only know that at the height of it all I Googled some of the "symptoms" all together and up popped "Kundalini."  Much of what I was going through "fit", including some of the physical problems (I ended up in the ER twice with horribly painful gastrointestinal problems, and I had mild palpitations and chills, etc.), but, again, I still think that I kind of "got off easy".

Your experience sounds as if it was truly devastating--I'm so sorry that you went through it like that, and I hope that at the end you were able to distill the good from it, because I do believe that the path through all that fear and out-of-control feelings CAN, if we're lucky and let it happen, lead us to become stronger and better in many ways.  (It sounds as if you were able to do that eventually).

It's funny, last night before I fell asleep I was talking to my guide and trying to remember exactly what it was that scared me so much back then.  I remember being afraid to go to bed (now I love it again, because almost every night is an adventure!), and running around trying to find a place where I could "escape" the things that were being said to me.  It seems like a dream now, but when I remember how desperate I was there for a while it amazes me.

And David (who guided me through) was like your guide in that I couldn't always find him--those were the times when I was REALLY scared, because I thought of him as my friend and guide and safety, but I also thought of him as my one link to sanity.  But one day he said to me, "Even when you can't find me, think about taking my hand, because I'll always be here."  That helped me more than anything.

(Interesting that you described some of your experience as similar to the feelings you get from coke!  I can see what you mean--for a while there, I never slept, and I felt that anything was possible.  But coke, of course, lets you crash harder than just about anything...I used to try to decide if it was like hallucinogens; I guess it was on the face of it, yet it was very different, because I could feel what was happening as a spiritual event that ultimately made "sense", rather than just random hallucinations--and the things I saw/see almost NEVER scare me, which was not true at all with hallucinogens, which almost always ended up scaring me.)

Also interesting that you mention needing to learn to love yourself.  Although I didn't really understand why at the time, David kept working overtime to get me to love myself, in any way he could.  Even when horrible words were coming at me, I often saw the word "love" just coming through, over and over.  I realize now that he knew that I couldn't be strong without loving myself and being confident in myself (I still have some work to do on that, but I'm definitely much better now!).  That's also why he kept at me to start exercising consistently, stop drinking alcohol, etc.  I don't know how he knew how to do these things, but thank God he did.

Guardian--that's a better word than "guide", I think.  "Spirit guide" is yet another label that I hesitate to use, because it puts things in a box that doesn't quite fit, for the sake of convenience, I think.

Anyway, thank you for telling me about your experiences, Crow!

Doe

Doe,

It was hell, but so is labor.  The end result, holding of breathe could go so many ways.  I was fortunate to gain from the experience.

Although you may not like the labels. Since you had put it out there with a little description, I was able to go in that direction. This helped with me finding a lot of answers.  Until yesterday I had no clue what happened.  So thank you for sharing this with all of us.  I see that this could take years to process.  Is it always going?  I mean once awakened does it ever go back to sleep?  Will that snake come back to bite my butt? lol  No really, like I said I had no idea what happened.

Now did David help prior to your experience?  Were there already seeds there for when you could no longer hear him as you worked this out?  I am curious.

Safe Journey