Hi all,     this is my first post so I would like to take the time to introduce myself. My name is Alena, I'm 30 years old and have 3 wonderful daughters only 1 of which is with me (long story).  This is probably going to be a bit long winded... please bear with me.

A couple months ago I started having really bad relationship problems with my significant other and I turned to tarot. Bought a deck of tarot cards and started trying to see what I could come up with as far as my relationship goes - everything pointed to me leaving. I then turned to God - I asked him for a sign... could be a big neon sign or he could stamp on my forehead what I was supposed to do. He opted for the first - in my dreams that night I received a big neon sign telling me "GO", there were plenty other answers to questions, none of which I remember.A few days after this I sat down, crying, talking to him (God) asking him to give me guidance... I had the very strong urge to pull out my tarot cards, so i'm shuffling and out flies the emperor card - then I drew 3 cards and basically I got the impression that he was again telling me to "GO" I'm still here.. I have been very confused, distracted, depressed - you name it.  I havent' gotten up the strength or the courage to leave. I have a 6 year old daughter with him and I would be moving 900 miles away... I guess I'm feeling guilty about taking her away from him. In the last few days though, after my last "sit down" with God, I have had the strange feeling that something major is about to happen... I can't seem to shake it off!!! I'm trying to get in touch with my spiritual side,  trying to find answers, but coming up short.    I should also add that I have been seeing spirits or shadows lately and since the whole thing started I've had 2 spirits whisper my name in my ear - one was male and one was female.

Whew.. that was long. Any thoughts/advice/guidance/yelling... anything is appreciated!  

Hello, and welcome  

All I can say is go with your gut. You asked for answers, they were given ... don't question them.  

Best to you and your daughters. Have faith.  

There is a funny little inspiration in one of my favorite books - its called:  God has a set of Hammers!  In it is explained that when things go wrong, as they sometimes will, he taps us upon the head gently, trying to get our attention.  When we ignore the advice he uses a bigger one and taps a little harder.  Finally, when we still don't listen he hits us up the side of the head with a 2 x 4.  We land in hospital suffering before we take the time to listen.

You are at the 2 x 4 - listen or suffer the consequences of your indecision and lack of listening.

Thank you both for your responses! I probably am at the 2x4 stage, but I just can't seem to see the light at the end of the tunnel, hence my indecision. I am a Libra and we are normally very indecisive to begin with. I have never had this much trouble deciding to up and leave when things got to the point that everyone involved was miserable. I have told him I'm leaving, but he just won't turn me loose!

Hello
My heart aches for people who are stuck trying to do right by there kids even when they know its wrong for themselves.. I have to quote Dr. Phil here and say its better to be from a broken home than to live in one!! My parents split when I was in my early 20's and they are both much happier now, sometime I wish they had of split when I was younger..

Hope this helps you a bit..

Amber