I have been on a spiritual journey since my early teens.  My quest has always been for the truth about the meaning of life but has evolved into a personal quest for my origins, past lives and finding my path to enlightenment.

I feel like my interest comes in waves or like there is a cycle to my hunger for answers and direction.  In the last couple of years the cycle has quickened and I hunger more often, see more of what appear to be answers and am meeting more and more people who are on a similar quest.

I have studied various belief systems, religions and philosophies.  While I feel "safe" in following common threads between them, in the end there are still questions I cannot find the answers to easily.  I at times have taken leaps of faith and there is always the fear I am on moving onto the wrong path.  In some cases I am validated by experience or correlating events but there are other times I feel uncertain and drive forward anyway.  Recently I received information that appears to be a lynch pin that pulls together common threads of spiritual, philosophical and scientific theory and belief systems but need confirmation. (happy to share this info with anyone interested IF I am not making a mistake in seeing it as such)

Can someone help me validate the path I am on?  Have I identified a true lynch pin that truly pulls together all the pieces?  I'd also like to understand whether I am starseed preparing to "wake up" or if I am just a maturing soul.

Great thanks in advance for any clarity provided...

My name is Chris Hughes and my bday is 12/06/60 9:00PM

No one can validate your path for you. That comes from within.

A question for you: Who are you? You are not your past lives, for they are as much me as they are as much you. The path to the origin can turn into a path of distraction if we allow it. So distractions aside, who are you?

Take care my friend.

Thanks for the reply looking_glass.  You speak truth based on teachings I have received on my journey.  I understand and have only gotten to where I am by answers that have come from within.  My problem all along has been learning which voices speak truth from within and others that are conjurings of my mind.  I admit to being impatient at this point but just in the last week I have been exposed to exciting ideas and insights that excite me.  I was looking to get ahead of the "wait for the answer" and save myself some time.  I have gone down the wrong path before and through experience my course was corrected.  Even taking the wrong turn taught me lessons.  This time I felt the need to reach out.


I am one with all and am source energy.  I am the center of infinite creation and host infinite universes within.  Therefore I am everything.

While this is an esoteric answer and I believe in it, I base it on education along the path and an experience I had about 18 years ago.  In that experience, while in contemplation of a fractal reality that houses universes within universes infinitely, I suddenly found myself confronted with access to infinite knowledge that gave me the answer to everything.  As suddenly as i was learned the answer it was snatched away(or too much to bring back with me) and I became aware of this reality again.  I had the feeling of ecstatic joy tempered with extreme frustration that I had the answer but could not remember it except for it had something to do with love so deep it was beyond words.

While my experience reminded me that the reality I was living in was false and that I had things to learn, it did not answer where I am in terms of spiritual development now.  Or, if I am starseed preparing to wake up and help evolve other souls.  (I ruled out being a Bot a long time ago

My path is becoming clearer and even my latest insights which I am seeking validation for will not answer the last two questions.

Do I look to hard for answers when the real purpose is the experience itself?

From my point of view, you cannot view yourself as sitting on a track waiting to get to some next level or waiting to help someone else get to some next level. The boundaries we make don't exist except for within our mind. We separate ourselves from all that is. You need only look to others, whether a stranger, a neighbor, or a relative and see how you view them. Can you say you love unconditionally, or do you find yourself picking them apart, questioning them? We see the world through our experiences, through the lessons we've learned. Today we may see something, and tomorrow that view may be slightly different. But which is the correct view; both of them, one of them, or maybe none of them?

Sometimes we can concentrate on the wrong questions and send ourselves off on a wild chase, only to find ourselves sitting in the same place. The distance home is no shorter and no longer than knowing who we are. In knowing who we are and who others are, hopefully we can see that unconditional love is the only way. So it is not about waiting to find some path, or some secret knowledge, it is about remembering that we are truly never disconnected. In an instant you are home. In every instant you are loved. In every instant you are understood. In every instant there are no questions.