Hi again,

I'm just going to offer an opinion here.

You've been through something terrible, and obviously (for good reason) you're still dealing with a lot of thoughts and feelings about what happened to your mother.  It also sounds like you're dealing with some feelings of guilt about the argument you had with your mother (even though everyone argues with family from time to time, and you had no way of knowing what was going to happen), and a lot of suspicions leading you in different directions and making you mistrust people.

It seems to me that all of those feelings might cause problems in both coping with what happened, and in finding out what, exactly, did happen.  The problem with seeking "psychic" answers from people who don't know you or your mother is that you could very easily ask five psychics what they think happened, and you could get five answers.  One might be right (and that could be a matter of a lucky guess--no offense to the psychics here), or all could be wrong.  Psychics can be misled, and some, unfortunately, may also be unscrupulous.  If one leads you to believe something in a case as serious as this one, you could end up accusing someone who is innocent.  Any number of bad things that make a bad situation even worse could happen, and just lead you to more unsettling suspicions and, to use your word, paranoia.

I completely understand your wanting to find out what happened to your mother--any caring person would.  But there are other ways to find out---other people to talk to who might have better ways to find out than, say, the fire marshal.  If you can connect with the right people (and I know that it might be hard, but keep at it), you might find some answers that are well-informed, at the very least.  What, for example, was the cause of the fire?  Had anyone that you're suspicious of ever threatened or hurt your mother or anyone else?  Had your mother ever threatened or tried to commit suicide?  The answer is there.

And, if you do find that you simply can't get the answers you want after exhausting all of the usual possibilities, then you might think of turning to your mother for answers.  You feel that she was trying to tell you something in the dream, and that what happened when you were on the phone to the fire marshal might have been some kind of sign.  If your mother wants you to know something, she may very well try to tell you.  Talk to her, either in your dreams or when you're awake.  Ask her questions, even though you might not hear her answers.  Ask her to keep trying to show you the way to the answer, because you love her and you care, and then continue to pay attention to the little things, and the dreams, that happen and seem to be "saying something."

Finally, for yourself, it may help for you to try to understand why it's so important for you to know.  Obviously, if someone did something to hurt her, you'd want to know and make sure that they're brought to justice.  But what are the deeper reasons?  What else will knowing do for you?  Will it really bring you peace, or just bring up more questions?

My feeling (and I could be wrong) is that if you're meant to know, you'll eventually know.  If not, you won't.  Either way, you need to decide how you'll move on in your own life, and honor your mother's memory, and make her happy to see that you're OK.  Some of the answers may just have to come from within--but those tend to be the answers you can trust the most.

Again, just my opinion...I wish you all the best in getting answers, and in healing.

Take care,

Doe

i' sory for you lost and can understand what  your going throw my old man
's G-mom who raed him pass not to long ago and eave after a aedtopcey thay still don't know way she died. my hart gos out  to you and i'll Pray for a ancer to come to you.

Wow, im so sorry you are going thru this.  When someone dies and leaves lots of questions unanwsered it is truely awful.  I have been thru it myself so I know.

Im really sorry im not psychic.  I will say tho,  I think your dream was your mother coming thru to you, letting you know she was ok.  Your sub concious will know what was said in the dream.  I had a similar one soon after I lost someone close to me.  I just know it was peaceful, and it was like we said goodbye, but I cant remember what was been said!

I agree with Doe, if your meant to know, you will, somehow.

Take care

Iam sorry for your loss , i can understand what you are going through it's guilt,grief and your inability to do something for your loved ones all mixed up. As iam not a psychic i dont realy know what happened but about your dream i am sure , your mother is at peace and she is not angry with you,otherwise she wouldnot have tried to contact you . Keep talking to your mother i am sure you will get the answers of your questions . you can also ask her for forgiveness if you like , mothers can never remain angry with their children for too long. I pray to GOD that her soul rest in peace and to give you strength at this difficult time.

Very sorry to hear of your loss, my deepest Sympathy goes to you and your family.