Doe i probly should stop calling him my shadow man seeing as from the time i sead hello hes not in shadow anymore i do  see him fully now kind of a tall man with a blue bussnes sute wavey brown hair tucked under a hat and green eyes glasses and a breafcase. the only thing that  fealls out of place is the breafcase like it should be somthing eyls than what it is.  i di d try to meadatate on it to night too and i did get a replay he shairs the same name as one of my cosuions lol i have 2 named after sanints so i'm still stuck. all he refurts to a vishion i head back wan i was 19 and deep in pair for a frind where i saw a garden and bench and yes jesses praying too that was my wake up call as he sead to me my pather was dfrent but his father would love no matter what but my religous pat was dfrent that what was ment for and throw my bleafs i would have a closser relachionship with god. wich as it turs out i do now. i shaird that vishion with my paster i head at them time and he agreed that maby i should reach out to the outher chures in the town i live in and find where i fit in. lol wich brought me back to my path of being a earth druied. so as i trivel down this rod i know i'll find the name just like my frist spriet guid reaveld her self to me at my grates time of nead. she my stranth wan i'm week my eyes wan i cant see and my gard wan in danger.