I have a really strange experience whenever i'm half awake
In the past few weeks, I had disturbing dreams, just yesterday I dreamt I was on a killing spree of mascots and someone I killed because she was sacrificing herself to defeat some evil.  Well, I try to disregard these nightmares, I really wonder about something else.

I would jolt awake whenever I get nightmares, the moment I do, I have these visions, of black flying insects an arm's length away from me.  Before, it was used to be black dots only, now they turn into fly-like creatures.  Is it just hallucinations?  

once, I had these "apparitions" but it was white dots.  It's not the lights coz usually it's pitch black in the room.  I actually experimented yesterday. I keep waking up at night just to test if i'll see those visions (to test if it's just the lights and my eyes etc).  But I didn't see them.  

Are these just my imaginations only? They really scare me so I shut my eyes and open them just to make sure it's just my blurry eyes adjusting, but they wouldn't go away so I try to sleep again...

hope someone can enlighten me..thanks!

We can take charge of our own mind by positive affirmations and setting ourselves up for a positive experience in sleep.  We do this while awake and just before sleep set the tone.  Remember you are always in charge of your own body, mind, spirit so the dreams must be coming from imagination.  

Controlling the imagination is the best course so that what you get would be more positive.  And sending anything away (saying I don't like this - go away!) is important in the midst of anything uncomfortable.  Dreams are about you.  You can take charge.

Hi Bloom,

I hope your dreams are more peaceful now, they sound very frightening. Our eyes are the last thing to adjust when we come from the dreamworld and back to physical reality. When it is pitch black our brain can mistakenly interpret outside electrtical impulses as dots and flashes. Sometimes we can recreate them and so we know it is probaly just us, other times it may be spirit contacting us or the residual energy of the dream world being drawn back to the borderlands. My advice is to do as Spirit says and think before you go to sleep, and relax and don't worry

HI, your first dream sequence is dealing with those aspects of your self that you may not like too much but are unwilling to let go of, (mascots) killing the one sacrificing herself for evil,(evil being live backwards) is an inner desire to for positive change, try not to buy into the idea of what is good and what isn't. If you make mistakes you simply affirm you will do better next time and let it go. It is a willing sacrifice to let go of those things that no longer reflect who we are.

as to the black dots, your brain will try to find a match for an image if that is what you ask it to do, when you wake from a challenging dream you may be deliberately trying to break from it by focusing on something outside of yourself, you know, sometimes we wake from a disturbing dream go back to sleep and find ourselves right back in it. you might like to try just relaxing and looking, if this is an image that is undeveloped of a psychic nature, this will allow it to develop, if it is just an adjustment of the eyes then they will come into focus everytime and you will know that too. it is a matter of waiting and seeing. pardon the pun, unintended.

the more interesting aspect is that you wake up during these dreams, which means you may not be deeply asleep when you are having them, if you are going through a period of significant personal change you will, not may, find that dreams reflect those aspects that you are trying to get on top of.

for expample if you have a tendency to deny your part in your own problems your dreams may show you struggling with an unnamed beast. (just an example) the beast would represent the personality trait that is part you, again for example this may be defensiveness. The monster is then a representation of your defensive qualities, but as you deny it, then you see it as separate from yourself. Because on an inner level you know very well that this is part of an existing problem, it will come up on a less conscious level and you can see yourself fighting, struggling etc.

hello again!  
I'm trying to comprehend the things you all said.  i guess i'm never good at interpreting dreams, i just know i dream often.  it's actually hard for me to understand myself but so easy to see/judge other's behavior or feeling.  I would always think i'm all good inside, maybe these dreams try to tell me that i have also bad intentions for other people (w/c i deny).
 
I have a dream journal and I backtrack as much as I can remember.
look what i wrote last march:
Last night, I dreamt of someone (which I think is sort of an occultist) who especially pointed me to go to him. He thinks he saw some black aura surrounding me. More on that some spirit (which I did some wrong) lurking around me...that I'm bad luck. I see a dark alley...dark classrooms...something related to being careless so the place became ashes. That some people died because of this careless doing. Did I know it will happen but I didn't care enough?

maybe i have this delusion that I am good and yet I can hurt others (unintentionally or intentionally)..but do we all....

anyway...i just hope i can stop having nightmares.  i often think that maybe it's the place i sleep (maybe someone died here in our new flat long time ago and they left some negative emotions,aura around here) i'm not actually very aware of any psychic powers..i just have gut feelings i trust (though it sounds so childish or whimsical)

thanks again....