Hi everyone...My name is Jenn...I'm 29..do to be 30 this Sept 3/08....and for a while now I've found myself in quite a profound place. About 3-5 yrs ago...I started getting/feeling this internal  sensation/voice within me. For a while I discounted it as nothing...or just stress maybe...and ended up putting a deaf ear to it!! It continued though....months...next yr...and each time became louder and louder...and the events in my life became more complex and seemingly "blocked"..like I would get to a certain point and then everything would "HALT"!! I finally, in the last 2 yrs,  started noticing this chain of events and began to listen to this noise in me that I had deafened up 'til then!! I've come to see I needed to desperately look within and that "spirit"/higher self had to finally SCREAM to get my attention. I've done a lot of work and have realized many things about myself previously unknown and have listened and been quided...such as spiritual gifts...a very intuitive nature...and quite profound emotional feelings. I mean it literally was such a wake-up call for me to listen...that my whole life was interrupted/stopped....CRAZINESS!! A lot of changes need to be made on my part, in order to regain myself back...and I am alright with this....but I seem to feel like there is more to this and I just can't figure it out!! Like I am missing some point or something...Or am I perceiving the wrong message, maybe taking it the wrong way??? I honestly don't know..maybe I am not!! So I was wondering if anyone could give me some perspective/guidance into this spiritual journey that I am on!! My life is literally changing from the ground up and I just am not sure if I am where I'm supposed to be...VeryCONFUSED!!!  

Hi, Jenny,

It sounds as if something very good and positive is happening to you now that you've started to let yourself listen to the "noise" within you.  I'm sure that there are others here who can offer better guidance than I can, but my immediate sense is that if you keep listening, quietly, without diving right in and trying to interpret and understand what's happening (I'm finally learning to stop trying so hard to find "rational", "human" exlanations for things that may very well be impossible to interpret in those old ways), it will, over time, take you where you want to go (even if you don't know where that is yet ).

What does the "message" seem to be so far?  Has it been consistent?  Does it feel right to you?

I wish you the best with it!

Doe

We are always where we are supposed to be.  The problem can be that we don't understand where that is and how to deal with all the confusions attached to it.

Read up on Tools of Your Own Consciousness (visualization, meditation, affirmation)  under the Mediumship Development.  They outline how to work on self - which is the first place to start - and open to the universe with a Take Charge manner.  When we have talents within ourselves, we take charge to develop them the best possible level we can.  That is what is needed here.

Relax, start with self in balancing self, then with meditation you can open doors to the unseen world.