Hi there all,
I've been dowsing for a while, and keep on getting 'yes' to the answer if I should kill myself. That sounds shocking, but most people in my situation would've killed themselves long ago. I've tried everything, but nothing stops me from feeling life is unbearable and I have to constantly convince myself to keep on living. (Had a lot of violence and abuse from childhood through to adulthood, and have severe ADD/ADHD  that makes it hard for me cope with daily life, social life or work (haven't had a job in years, I can't stay in jobs, can't keep friends or family relations are are all over).
Anyway, I've been actively involved in self-healing, spirituality etc for years but it's still such torture, it's as if I'm not supposed to be alive.

Is it possible that this message isn't coming from my higher self? I believe it is, because I get the same reply over and over, whenever I ask.

I'm not likely to kill myself, BTW, because of the effects it will have on my husband, but dowsing assures me it's for his benefit too....I'm puzzled though, because I always thought that your higher self wouldn't advise on self-destruction. Mine seems hell-bent on destroying me...but then I think it has a point. Are some lives maybe best ended.....

NO::NO:::NO :: NO:::NO

How can you believe such a thing?

You say you have been into spirituality....then you know that there is several task we shall go true in order to move to our next fase.
If you go and take "the easy way" out....well then you might have to do it all again in the next turn....you haven't found the solution.

I think we never can use any tool for such an question as this....because if you do it...it's final....you give up your own will...and that is our most precious gift.

When we ask for advice from the different tools in divination...we ask for leads....leads we with our will must work towards in order to achieve a better life.
So in my opinion you are asking the wrong question.

Back to your situation....yes you have a hard life.....but even people who have a hard life can live a rich life.

Since you have asked several times about suicide I can say you are into a very negative state of mind.
This state wll make your day dark and make life hard to carry. You have to start working on yourself in order to have a more positive outlook on life.
I am aware that it is not any easy task to turn around ones life....it is not only to snap ones fingers...we have to work with ourself.

I myself have been far far down....I cried when I thought on my situation...I have never time to attend family events....I work 7 days a week....the last 30 years I have had 2 hollidays on 1 week each. This lead to much stress....heart attack and at last Bypass operation on my 50 years birthday.

The last think made me think....and I started to accept my situation...I do the same as soon 14 years ago....but I live a much richer life...I have moved focus from myself to other. Just like you tell me about your situation, there is many many people that have a a worse day then me....how can I complain? I have food on the table...I am able to communicate....I am even able to give "comfort" and maybe some help to other....I feel now that I have a much richer life then before.

So what I recommend you is to try to suppress any negative thought....be like a sponge and draw any positive thought you manage towards you. We can all agree that your life is hard....but it is yours...accept it if you aren't able to change it....change the way you look at it...try to use a bit of black humor about yourself and your situation.....The main thing is to get your brain to understand that your life aren't that bad afterall...there are millions that have it equal or harder.
If you have spare time....use it to help other....just to be there....no need for any great knowledge....to give a hug is many times enough both for you and the receiver.

So promise me never to use any divination tool to ask such a stupid question....rather ask...what fun can I do today (remember black humor..every smile give you energy!!)

A big Grandpa hug and good luck!!

I think its important to realise that dowsing sometimes tells you what you want to hear and can be imprecise especially when its getting the same negative question alot. Some dowsing implements don't like being asked the same question alot and will direct you to do daft things.

Suicide is kind of a waste of a life (IMHO) and in some respects pointless and tragic.  If i took you to see what happens after a person has killed themselves you would not have the same fascination for it.  Your body will look terrible, the post mortem is very invasive and you won't be buried/cremated for some time.  There is the emotional price that is paid by your family and friends and associates as well as the burden of guilt you place on these people because they will feel they didn't do enough for you.  As to what will happen to your spiritual side?  hmm I can't say...but i suspect you perhaps will not get the release you wish.

I hear what you are saying, your life sounds difficult but you have some resources that other disabled people do not.  That being a supportive network to help you and your spirituality.

The cool thing is you belong to the mystic board who have an extended membership and so there is always someone around to talk with.

warped speed....I agree whole heartedly with the advises given above...the answer to your question is a firm NO!
Our life is a path, a journey...yes sometimes it is a rough journey filled with many lessons that seem at the time unbearable...I have been there, as well we all have!
Have you ever heard of the power of positive thinking? Do you ever tell yourself you are pretty...or smart...or talented? Obviously people love you...why do you think that is?
Negative feelings bring negative things to your life...
It is easy for me to say stay positive..I am not in your shoes however from my own personal experiences I can tell you that changing your thoughts and finding inner peace is a LIFE CHANGING experience! I cannot change your thoughts ( I wish I could) but I can offer my support and send you lots of positive light and love...because believe it or not...I love you! Why you ask? Because you are a part of creation...you are one with me and I love me!

((((((((((((((((((((((((((HUG)))))))))))))))))))))))))
~Donna~

I was thinking something like that too.

Maybe you wanted it so bad the dowsing just wanted to make you 'happy' and tell you what you want to hear.  I have evil I Ching coins like that.  Or, had I should say.

As for positive thinking.  There is always hope.  You just have to find it and embrace it.