Thank you so much Missn0rge, i will be very hard but i will do that, i know is stupid to think that he miss me, after he left us, he say that still love me and a few days ago say that he dont, i dont know if see him on halloween or not, i think that he dont deserve it...

Im already working on me, starting all over again, a new life, i meet new people and have new good friends that help me and support me a lot, im also in new projects, but still thinking Why? Why happen this to me? i love him so much, with all my mind and soul, i give him everything and forgive him a lot of things, maybe this pain is because i cant accept that he stop loving us in hours and start loving another woman  and another family another child inmediatly... is that possible? i read about love and being in love... i only hope to dont miss my true love...

Let's put it this way...his free will choices are taking him on his journey, just as yours are taking you on your own spiritual journey.  The whys of life are just not that important!  Can I repeat that for all those questioning the whys of life - the whys of life are just not that important!

When we are busy making ourselves strong, empowered, balanced and effective in our own life, who would have time to worry about the ones that got away?  And they were just not right for you and in a higher perspective you will see - they really don't matter that much any more anyway!

Seek happiness whereever you may find it.  No ONE person is put here for us - we are here to make as many relationships possible, from which to learn and grow in spirituality.

"The whys of life are just not that important!  Can I repeat that for all those questioning the whys of life - the whys of life are just not that important! "

Thanks for the slap upside the head spiritalk! You are correct and sometimes some of us need reminded...like ME!

You won't miss your true love.  You have multiple soul mates, and the one you're meant to meet willcome when the time is right.  Just don't lose hope, and worry about taking care of yourself and loving yourself for a change!  I've found in my life that I had to be content with who I am before I was able to meet someone else to care about romantically.  Just worry about finding someone to enjoy and spend time with, not worry about someone to fall deeply in love with.  The love will come with time.  It also helps in the sense that if things don't work out with guys you meet, you do have a good friend to enjoy spending time with, talking to about issues, and just having companionship.  I'm speaking mostly from experience, lol.  Don't you love how people just randomly up and walk away? -.-

(((Hugs))) I hope you're feeling much better now!!