Hi there,
I am amazed how I sit here after my fundamentals have been shaken for a while and only with the grace of God have I survived this and actually walked through all and only suffered a bruised heart so far, no matter how devasted I get, I am okay.

But I am so disillusioned and limited sometimes with my problem solving skills and overwhelmed with unfairness and resentment from people that I am feeling lost  most of the time and can't  react to conflict in my best interest anymore and appreciate any insight and direction you can advice for me.
I don't want to just fade away, but seem to lack any  abilility to stop spinning my wheels.  Thank you for your time and love.
God Bless,
Tina

Hi Tina,
Welcome to Mystic Board.  I hope that by reading through some of the wonderful and inspirational threads on this board you might find your path again, If I can help please let me know until then a big {{{{hug}}}} coming to you xxx

It's always hard when one feel that all are letting one down.

In many cases there have been done injustice....and in other cases it is a situation who has developed over time.

It's always good when one have got it a bit on distance...to try to honest evaluate the situation...and see if oneself did anything wrong.

Not so much for the situation that have occurred...but to learn for the future.

Most actions are an result from our own....and the only person we can manage to change... is ourself.

I am not saying that you are the cause of what happened....I am just trying to tell what conclusion I myself has come too.

Good luck to you....and a bear hug..if you want

Hi Turbo-

I'll quote Rhuto "Most actions are an result from our own....and the only person we can manage to change... is ourself. " is very true. It's how we react to a situation, "cause and effect" that determines the outcome. The message is: the occurrence isn't as important as how you perceive it, and then respond to it.

What I picked up briefly was lies, deception and adultery. I'm sorry for you and I am feeling just a bit of your pain, hopelessness, despair, betrayal and lack of trust. What I am getting is your mate cheated on you. People you trusted knew about it but never told you, they played dumb and in fact mislead you making you think your suspicions were all in your head.  You have been betrayed in many ways and it is unfair.  The scenario I have just painted may be way off.. but this is what I am picking up or living. If I am wrong, please do tell me.

I know right now you feel like you are stuck in some deep dark well and drowning it. And this may seem harsh (it is said with love) but snap out of it! Your self pity is not benefiting you, it is sucking you down and you are dangerously close to getting lost in it and getting out won't be so easy if you continue this path. Get angry! Use that anger as your strength; it's ok and it is what is going to help you climb out of this self-imprisonment you are creating for yourself. The process is pain/anger/forgiveness/release. Get out of the first step and move on to the second! This is no longer about trusting people in your life like you think it is. You have lost faith in yourself, you lost trust in yourself, you can no longer trust your own instincts... this isn't about the people that surround you.  Let them go, let what they represent to you go, let the lies and deception go. Cut them out of your life.

Right now, you need to do some accounting and that is accounting for what you know is true about your own self worth. You don't need anyone to justify who you are to make you worthy, all you need is what you already know are facts about yourself to know your own self worth. You are very creative, social, intelligent, loving, giving, feeling, care-free beautiful creature who deserves better than what she got. What happened, some of it was beyond your control and let's face it... there are some factors you just can't control. You can only control how you perceive it, how you react to it and how you take care of it. Don't give it all of your energy... it doesn't deserve it and it isn't worth the toll it's taking on you mentally, emotionally and physically.

Learn to trust yourself, know yourself well, have faith in yourself and you will find you can have that again with others.

Big hugs from me to you.

Hi there,

thanks for the hugs, I take them.  Well, Angelique, you are right about the adultery, that"s where it all started. That hurt, but didn't throw me off.  However, when I found out that I am getting thrown out of the country I have been living in for 20 years and at the same time finding out that my financial secure future was taken away by a trusted family member, I got overwhelmed with pain and it shattered everything I believed in and don't think situations like that are beneficial to anybody's well-being.  I had no idea that humans behave like that, left alone that people I knew would do something like that.

Well, I guess, it was time for me to get a insight in this and actually, considering what goes on the world, this is quite trivial.  It saddens me and deeply dissappoints my belief in human beings.  It looks like , that given the chance, most humans have no problem disadvantaging another human being, even if there is no gain for them.  If they can benefit, no matter how small the gain, they usually go for it.  I thought it was vice versa .  LOL

Anyway, does somebody have some insights and advice for my career path?  I was born Feb11, 1964 in Heidelberg ,Germany.
I don't know my exact time of birth, but it was in the morning  9 or 10am?
Thanks
Bettina