yes i need help

Hi rajagursahani i have seen your pm, sorry it took me a while to get the time to try to "tune in"...i get the destinct feeling you are in new but familiar surroundings...have you recently moved overseas (perhaps to a country where you have lived before) i feel you have relatives/family around you who, although they are thrilled with having you back would like you to get back on your feet (carrer wise) and support yourself (as you have had a little time to settle in).

Wow this is crazy... hope i'm making some kinda sense here Lol.

Ok...i feel you are artisticaly minded and have dabbled in al sorts of artistic fields eg: music, cooking...maybe even film industry? But you seem a bit lost as to what you realy want and where your real talent lies?

I think food for you cooking! You may laugh now   ...but hey?   you asked....  start out small...and who knows in a few years you may have your own restaurant    hope i have been helpful in some small way???

P.S a little feedback please, it always helps when your learning  

Hmm..who's into software development? is that you or relatives?

i just moved back from india where i stayed for four months and i just moved back into my parents new house, (california, they moved to a better house) and yes they are glad to have me back and yes careerwise i need to get back on my feet. i was in india hoping to get a job there and figure out things. i have been told that overseas is everythign for me but you are telling me that owning a restaurant is a possibility. i mean that has been a dream of mine but where i should live is perplexing me. i don't know like the area where i live. i live in a rural town in california and i really don't like my surrounding. can you comment more. you are a very good psychic, you really are right about everything in a very positive and general way!!!

oh about software development i had been in a company (2001) that did software development and yes my mind is always bent in computers and software development any hints regarding that.  i mean i have no real hardcore training in computers but i love it. its a huge field and i really don't know where to go with it. i need to focus on one thing of course and it would be nice to know that direction of course!!!

you are right i am very artistically minded. i have tried acting but what is wrong there? also i have tried other things but i don' t have the gusto or luck.  however i like to cook but i just don't feel motivated to learn to cook. you suggest cooking?  i mean really what is going on and what should i do?

i also have had been suffering from some mental psychosis and when i went to india i met a doctor there dr muzumdar, by the way did he really help me or i am still suffering from what he called anxiety neurosis. it was due to my nervous breakdown in college that forced me to dropout. i was studying chemistry.

also getting my degree seems to be very important in the back of my mind and it is always troubling me even though i should move on. any comments?

well can you dig deeper? because you are hitting the mark and i am so grateful!!

I feel your lack of directionand motivation is due to (like you say) stress, anxiety etc.

I believe some people never fully recover from a nervous breakdown.

However, my mother is a naturopath and practices Ayurvedic medicine (among other things) and i have seen first hand, since childhood how the foods (and beverages) people consume can be a huge factor in depression, lack of motivation and other stress/anxiety related disorders (especially undetected food/beverage allergies).

I have also seen how changing ones diet for the better can completely change people.

I do feel this is the case for you. I am no naturopath or doctor so i can't give you a diet plan...but i would sugest to you to see a good one, get a good diet plan, find out if you have any food allergies, celiacs disease (google it) or vitamin deficiencies (also google Ayurvedic medicine) the net is a fantastic source of info in general for this stuff (but can't give you an individualised diet plan either).

Change your diet, get plenty of exercise (even if it's just a brisk 20 minute walk every day or take up martial arts with a friend    (you know which one) and drink plenty of water daily. I am sure this will help you get back on your feet and then you will have the strength of mind (and heart) to know what you want...but be aware these things will take time so don't try to run before you can walk (so to speak) or you will only fall over.  

it is up to you whether you choose to do any of this of course...i do wish you the best for the future Raja  (and thanks so much for the feedback i appreciate it)