I was thinking last night whilst in deep thought that is it possible my development of my feeling side maybe to blame for my less than thick skin.  I am very sensitive almost too much.  It does not take much to hurt me should anyone try and at times theres no need to even try.  I have used my feelings to help me in my readings it is the first way I receieve my messages but has doing this opened me up to being vulnerable to normal everyday life.  I think yes!

Now I've been a stay at home super mother if I do say so myself for 13 years I had part time work on the ambulance side of things for a few years etc but I havent worked for a boss in a long time.  My boss at St Johns was so nice and more a friend than boss so I never had any issues in being asked for more or less of me in regards to a working situation.
Now I am concerend and the work thing is just an example for the sake of my topic, that should I go back to work for someone my thin skin will not protect me from bursting into tears or reacting to a stronger demand.  I worked for one boss 13 yrs ago whom on a regular basis threatened to kill us girls who were waitressing.  He did it all the time if we didnt get plates onto tables in a timely fashion he was forever yelling abuse and insults our way.  Now if I was to be faced with another boss even much more subdued than him I couldnt face it I would cry and probably strike out.  

I am finding my emotions are stronger now, its harder to hide them...Now I wouldnt want to ever give back what I am learning and for how so far I have already come.  I like that I am clairsentient and that I'm able to give others at times a much needed insight to get them on their paths or encourage them with their great work so far.   Is it although going to be a hazard of the develompent that for all time now I'm just going to be too sensitive.  How do I thicken up my skin to not allow me becoming so hurt without losing my touch on others.  I am aware of others intent when confronting me or a situation and I can always see things from two points of view (its not as great as some would think) so I dont react to everything but I am now much more sensitive to situations and have found over time I have shied away from situations that may involve heated arguments, fights or brawls such as pubs, family gatherings etc etc.

Does anyone else have this also, anyone finding their becoming much to thin skinned and trying to balance their development without being too open to normal adult life?

I also dont mean the use of protecting techniques etc I use these I'm talking from a much more natural physical not psychic emotional stability.  I am very happy with me emotionally just not that happy with the fact I'm a very easy target???

How can I get thicker skin...would it mean the loss of some sensitivity for readings, can I  be thick skinned and still be clairsentient?  Is being thin skinned what clairsentience is all about?

Any thoughts or experiences????

Dear Angel ...!

As long as you retain the sensitivity [and wisdom] to question your sensitivity and vulnerability and belief and admittance that you could lose the gift of sensitivity, I assure you, that the GIFT shall not leave you!

It is the GIFT and not the GIFTED that has a stake in this relationship! You see, the human without the GIFT can still do seven hundred and seventy (and counting...) things and lead a worthwhile life, but the GIFT would lose its raison d'etre the moment it loses its HUMAN substrate!

Hence not to worry! Just be true to yourself and through you to all others that are really images of YOU!

Makes sense, I hope?

RR


[quote="flight _of_angelwings"]I was thinking last night whilst in deep thought that is it possible my development of my feeling side maybe to blame for my less than thick skin.  I am very sensitive almost too much.  It does not take much to hurt me should anyone try and at times theres no need to even try.  I have used my feelings to help me in my readings it is the first way I receieve my messages but has doing this opened me up to being vulnerable to normal everyday life.  I think yes!

Now I've been a stay at home super mother if I do say so myself for 13 years I had part time work on the ambulance side of things for a few years etc but I havent worked for a boss in a long time.  My boss at St Johns was so nice and more a friend than boss so I never had any issues in being asked for more or less of me in regards to a working situation.
Now I am concerend and the work thing is just an example for the sake of my topic, that should I go back to work for someone my thin skin will not protect me from bursting into tears or reacting to a stronger demand.  I worked for one boss 13 yrs ago whom on a regular basis threatened to kill us girls who were waitressing.  He did it all the time if we didnt get plates onto tables in a timely fashion he was forever yelling abuse and insults our way.  Now if I was to be faced with another boss even much more subdued than him I couldnt face it I would cry and probably strike out.  

I am finding my emotions are stronger now, its harder to hide them...Now I wouldnt want to ever give back what I am learning and for how so far I have already come.  I like that I am clairsentient and that I'm able to give others at times a much needed insight to get them on their paths or encourage them with their great work so far.   Is it although going to be a hazard of the develompent that for all time now I'm just going to be too sensitive.  How do I thicken up my skin to not allow me becoming so hurt without losing my touch on others.  I am aware of others intent when confronting me or a situation and I can always see things from two points of view (its not as great as some would think) so I dont react to everything but I am now much more sensitive to situations and have found over time I have shied away from situations that may involve heated arguments, fights or brawls such as pubs, family gatherings etc etc.

Does anyone else have this also, anyone finding their becoming much to thin skinned and trying to balance their development without being too open to normal adult life?

I also dont mean the use of protecting techniques etc I use these I'm talking from a much more natural physical not psychic emotional stability.  I am very happy with me emotionally just not that happy with the fact I'm a very easy target???

How can I get thicker skin...would it mean the loss of some sensitivity for readings, can I  be thick skinned and still be clairsentient?  Is being thin skinned what clairsentience is all about?

Any thoughts or experiences????[/quote]

flight_of_angelwings,

It is very common to becoming emotional feelings and it will seem like you are so weak and get emotional over every little things.  There is nothing wrong with that.

What happens is....when we are coming into more of our abilities and we understand a little more of the under workings of what the Universe and life is all about, it will change a person to becoming more compassionate and it has a powerful way of changing who we are becoming.  This has also happened to me as well and never understood why I was like that until now...and just realize a lot of it a few days ago myself.

I used to be one of those tough, cocky attitude, holier than thou type mentality and never shed a tear in my life and saw that as a sign of weakness.  Through my transformation and through my learning (which I still am learning) that it has completely changed me into an entirely different person.  We don't have to put on a thicker skin or learn how to get our skin thicker.  What we need to do is learn how to cope with the situations as they come towards us.  

Remember that we can only handle one thing at a time proficiently.  Handle what is in front of you at the time and that will help minimize it some.  You also have to ask yourself, if you react a certain way towards whatever is happening.  Would it change matters or change what happened??  If the answer is "NO," then why feel those feelings?  Take the energy you have and put to solving the issue instead of wasting it on areas that is not going to help you in anyway.  In order to calm our emotions and become neutral, we need to learn to become the cause and not the effect....hence.....not feeling the victimization feelings.  It is easier said than done and I know through past experiences.   Everytime you are in that position again, remember to ask yourself some of these questions and we have to consciously remember to do this because it will seem foreign at first and ask ourselves these questions.  Slowly, you will notice that you are able to balance yourself out and will notice you won't have them as much as you once did.  

I hoped this information helped you!

I was re-reading my postings and thought it sounded harsh and sarcastic to my ears.  F.A.W.  if this sounds rough to you, I assure you that it was not meant to be...and wanted to add this little tidbit. These are the questions I had to ask myself countless of times to overcome my own victimization feeling and found this is what helped me get beyond this.  Handling the situation one at a time is most helpful because you won't feel so overwhelmed with having to feel like your being pulled every which direction there is.  Hugs~


angel

Thanks Mystic angel.

What you say does means something although I understand not letting it effect us etc and I can deal with things usually without getting to involved infact in most situations it just runs off me because I know the intent or that what is said or done really has no bearing on me but them instead.

Its that with some people you can feel their frustration, their anger, their loss of hope all the horrible stuff that usually sits behind cruel taunts like that.  Its a feeling like they want to pull you down into their sad state so I suppose on one way it having them say all this stuff to you knowing on some level its go to do with them but feeling it for much longer than normal.

I'm having a really hard time articulating exactly what I mean.....hmmm....I mean I understand all of the ways it works and such I'm more afraid that getting back into a normal workplace and life is just going to be too hard.  How do you fit in with people after you been doing this...I m making this more confusing........I suppose in a way I just dont feel like I blend in with others like I used to and I dont want to either I just......oh I dont know what I want now.....

I'm not sad or depressed or off my path I'm feeling a bit...... weird.....I think I better meditate clear my aura I have a feeling maybe somethings effecting me now.   I got something going on and I gotta work out what it is properly before trying to get others to.  It may have had something to do with my dream last night........I just kinda feel open.....like no matter what i just cant close down and go back to being un-clairsentient or atleast less unaware of it.....does that make sense??

I suppose I wish I had a button I could press so that when required I could press it when I'm around destructive minds and open it when I'm around good intents?

I just read your post, what you need is a set of tights like superman and a telephone booth...mild mannered FOAW  by day then superchick by night....would be great to have an on and off switch