Hi Beth,

Welcome to MB,  Do you remember why you closed, what made you retreat and shut off your gift?  Perhaps whatever it was scared you and you didn't have the support you needed to move through the experience? Its easy to be scared of what we don't understand, we often fear the unknown.  But my feeling is that if you can revisit the experience with the right help and support you will understand and reclaim your gifts and then learn more and gradually and safely reopen your channels in a way that you are comfortable with.

The orbs are most probably a sign that you are already shifting your way of thinking, and also joining here is a good step to recovery

Hi Beth!

The reason why you can't right now is because you have managed to build a wall around your abilities to hear and see them and that fear is still there blocking it.  The only way you are able to reopen this gate is to deal with the fear first and become more comfortable with them present around you.  We never really have total comfortability because the fear stems from everything we see in the movies and it put those images in our minds.  Not to say there are not bad spirits, but we associate all as being bad.  

Since I was 5 yrs old, I have seen spirits and it has become normal for me to see or sense them, hear them, hear them speak, etc.  however, you must have caution whether they are good or bad at first and know how to deal with both and how to detect whether they are good or bad.  Find someone who is an expert at mediumship to help you.  Don't go and do this alone because certain situations might become too much or too strong for you to handle on your own.  First and foremost, you must ground yourself, your soul and have a good protection to shield them from that possibility of harming you in anyway.  If you still have those fears to where it sometimes overpower you, wait until you are stronger before you dabb back into it.

Hope this helps you,

mysticangel

Those are words of wisdom from Mystic, and you should head. Having the power and being able to use it right are two different things.

Everyone has psychic powers, few know of it and fewer know how to use it. So dont be scared with what you are able to do. As mystic said, work on strengthening yourself with some grounding (refer the discussion on that in this Forum) , you need to be able to strengthen your energy and your body (so that it can support the high energy).

Considering its not an easy task to locate and expert medium and more than 90% of those claiming to be medium are only conning you, maybe you can contact the exterts on this Forum to help you. Maybe even Mystic can assist you on this.

Thank you, everyone. That was very helpful to me.


Yes, I agree that this is something that should not be done alone, but, unfortunately for me, I live in an area that does not have such a great supply of mediums. Fake or real.. lol I have been part of another psychic site for about 6 months now, but there help is starting to dwindle down.

I believe I have more abilities than just this one, but, like it was stated, I have put up a wall. I didn't like getting touch by spirits at work.. lol Yes, it was interesting to experience, but it was scary in the same matter. I find it interesting, though. Before I realized that I was actually seeing orbs, I used to think it was just my eyes playing tricks on me.. But then, I walked into a friend's house, saw a black orb as soon as I walked in (that no one else saw), and then later, something fell in a room no one had been in.. I just found it to be too much of a coincidence.

I have had bad experiences with spirits before. I wasn't protecting myself the way that I should have. I went into meditation without protecting myself, and I think I brought something back with me. I would wake up with scratches and bruises on me with no memory of where they came from. I would come home with a feeling of being watched as soon as I stepped out of my car. I was afraid of my own house. I didn't like being alone and I couldn't go into a room before turning on every light. Eventually, I realized what was going on and found help.

But I feel that my fear is disappearing.. I know I asked the spirit to leave from my room just as soon as it had arrived, but it just startled me. As soon as I had told it to leave, it did.. And then I regreting doing so. So, I feel my fear is going away, but at the same time, that wall is still there..

As for grounding, I have heard it used many times, I have just never attempted it. There was a woman I knew who attempted grounding for the first time and her abilities seemed to disappear. I never attempted it in fear of losing mine. I'm not the most skilled at those things, see. I have problems with getting into meditation deep enough to actually do anything. I never end up relaxed because (I don't think) I never do it right. And, with so little experience with meditation, I'm afraid to attempt grounding and have something awful happen there too... I was unable to find the grounding topic that you spoke of.. So perhaps, if someone could give me a website, or a mini-lesson on grounding (or perhaps meditation lol), it would really mean the world to me.


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