-thank you in advance.
        C92

You are really hard on yourself, for no reason.  You don't have to impress anyone, so don't try so hard.  Trying too hard will bring you down.  By this, I mean that you are hard on your looks, studies, all of it.  You have dreams and aspirations, but what chances you have had to move forward with them have been rejected cus you tried too hard.  I see poetry, you are good with rhymes.  I don't see alot of heartache, you are very much loved and you have a heart of gold.  You are still a young soul, although you've been through a lot in your past lives, you are still young and maturing; it's like you have a kid inside of you that likes to come out "all of a sudden".  You still have alot more to learn in life, so your soul is going to be around for awhile.  I get your grandmother for some reason.  Either you are really close to her, or you remind her of someone very special, but she is a big influence in your life.  She is guiding your soul whether you know it or not.

Your right I am really hard on myself especially my looks sometimes because people have always told me either I'm not pretty or I'm fat
So I don't feel good enough but, I'm going to try working on that.
Somebody told me I have to find myself then I will truly be happy..So maybe writing will make me happy I haven't done it in so long
and I didn't know my grandma that well she died when I was 6...But, my great granny died when I was 15 so I don't know which is guiding me but, it's not the first time I heard that.

Thank you Ianna Fae..
you helped me remember the hobby
that I'm good at

You'll be ok hun, just stay true to yourself.  Believe in who you are, and not what others want you to be.  I'm not sure which grandmother it is, but you know when she is there cus you smell something sweet sometimes and that item is not there.  For me, my guide smells like peaches, but there aren't any peachy things in the house.  Yours may smell like ... cookies or something baked, and all of a sudden you'll start craving it lol.  She is a very strong presents in your auara. The most important thing I can tell you is your friends always lie and your enemies usually tell the truth as harsh as it may be.  If you look like crap one day, you enemy will tell you so; whereas your friends will say you look fine.  You'll go through this all your life.  You are a special person in that you are beautiful both inside and out, and ugly people do not like beautiful people (by that I mean people that have negativity in them and not necessarily outward appearance).  Try to build a strong healthy relationship with your mother or another female mentor to share your secrets with, because you will find it hard for a "friend" to keep your SECRET things secret.

your right, you definitely made me feel better and gave me a different perspective on how I should view friends.
Thank you so much Ianna Fae