Thank you spiritalk! You are dead on with EVERYTHING. That picture was taken on Monday which was my birthday but also the same day I found out my cousin died. I tried to smile because it was my birthday and I was receiving so much love. However, deep down my heart was broken because of the loss. Also, most of my friends say that they love talking to me about their problems b/c I get as upset as they do about it and that makes them feel better. I never really thought about how I continue to carry that burden when they have moved on, but I certainly do! When it comes to love I admittedly have a hard time being vulnerable having seen so many loved ones get hurt because of it. I need to be willing to be more vulnerable when love is concerned and to follow my heart in career choices! Thank you so much for that reading!!!