I am a person who accept and understand my life , my destiny..I don't blame the life or destiny for what was happened to me.

I am a person who when people makes me suffer i can't forget them.. I forgive them, i accept the situation but i can't stop to think of how much they hurt me...

Sometimes i think that all the boys that i met in this life i hurt them in other lifes so for this reason they make me suffer...

When i suffer or someone makes me to suffer i can't forget.. For example my ex boyfriend he leave me without no explination and i remember 5 years i was thinkig of him, why, what, for what..every day for 5 years i dream him, he was on my mind.. I was angry with me, becouse i couldn't escape from him.. I was angry with me "why i can't forget? he doesn't think of me".. after 5 years i met another boy who i was thinkig he could be my best friend or a friend..again the same situation.. I avoided a person like my ex boy friend but i find another like him..

Perhaps the second boy who makes me suffer without no reason, who makes me suffer don't desearve to think of him..but everytime i close my eyes i realise that i was a game for him..this is not a problem..i understand him..i don't understand me, becouse i wish to not think at him... Ok i know that we will never make peace i know he is on my past but i wish to be free on my mind and my heart...I wish to not think him everyday, everynight, everyminute... I hate myself for not be able to be cold, to say "stop" he didn't desearve your tears...

If i blame someone..is not destiny, not God, not him hwo makes me suffer..is me who i am not able to forget.... And it hurt , even if i accept the situation, even that i accept my destiny i steal think of the situation.

That which we keep in mind (through fears, through acceptance, through any idea) are going to manifest time and again.  It is not possible to look for someone different if the ideal is still in your mind.  Release all thoughts of what you are looking for or will find.  That is the only way to accept someone new.  

Seek life as an adventure.  Do not be caught up in the conclusions you have reached.  

We do not bring anything from past lives (I do not believe we even had them) but the main thing is that you are living this life.  Keep your thoughts on the present and you will be able to figure out your own approach and make changes if you think they are necessary.

Your smile reaches your eyes and this is an important aspect of your growth.  You are not taking life as a cynic so much as an adventure to unfold.  Allow that life supplies your adventures and seek to fulfil all that comes your way.  

We are in some really trying times with the spirit.  Raise your sights to not only include the higher spirit - God - but also to feel it permeate all that you do.  In this way the adventures will be for your own best good and elevate your own spirituality.  We learn in our relationships - let the lessons be joy and peace.

I don't know what happen with me.. i know the situation, i accept the situation, i know i can't do nothink for this situation.. I wish to let all this in the past, but they began present.. Last night i dream for example the place where i was with him..he wasn't on my dreams but i dream the place exactly. I dream that i lost in his town...

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