Hello Spiritalk, thank you very much for taking the time to do the reading and pass on the information.

Im still trying to get to grips with this all so bear with me, when you say there is a material focus that is putting up blocks resulting in being unable to do spirtiaul focus what do you mean, how have i/how can i remove this??

and as for the confusion in the material life you are 100% correct i am very confused in what to do as a career, and really dont know what i can do, basically my husband is in the army so his career comes first, as we move around every 2 years i am not able to work my way up the ladder in any job. I want to train in some kind of profession as i want my son to be proud and be more then just a mother and housewife if you get me? the only thing is i really do not know what i can train as and how i can go about this as we also accually live over seas, so have been thinking about some kind of course via the internet. I just cant see myself being a housewife forever and feel ike im some how letting myself down by not having a certain proffesion yet. You also very right in that im a hard worker. I badly want my own career as well as my husband has his and i want my own, so people can be proud of me as well.

you are correct again when you say im a deeply spiritual person, i have always been very open minded, but i must admit i dont know that much,i suppose somtiimes i know deep down that what i feel is a spirit but i just shake the feeling and tell myelf not to be silly, hence why i have found this website and im hoping that i can learn ways to open up from here.

Thank you spiritalk

You answered your own question with the following paragraph.  You are not feeling validated or your worth accepted until you put into operation some material focus.  That is the block.  

Try turning the around and saying what does the spirit want?  How can I validate my spirit?  It is really your spirit that is out of sorts and the material focus will come when you validate your own spirit.