Been feeling down and out lately -- like I've lost myself somewhere! I'm hoping a reading will help me clear things up.

Thank you for your time!

Julie

Hi Julie

I feel you have been trying too hard, you need to step back and watch others for a while, instead of being up front. When you go into a room, centre yourself, take some slow breaths and be calm. Greet people calmly this will show the real you and then you can figure out who really wants to be friends with you for being you, instead of what you can give them.

Hope this is in the direction you ask for.

Life is all about experiences, so don't beat yourself up.

Stay happy and strong.

Thank you for your response.

I sort of understand what you are saying....... I am Aquarius, and for that, I meet many people of different kinds. I love to learn, and maybe it comes across as being to "eager".

Could that be what you saw? Eagerness, or is it that I am coming across fake?

I do try to befriend most........ I never thought of it as trying to hard though. Maybe that is why I am so exhausted!!!

Thanks again!!

It is sometimes easy to lose oneself, especially if all our waking moments are spent caring for and fretting over others. You are still there though, deep within, maybe a sore throat as I am getting a very red throat chakra, I wonder if you hare holding back tears about something, there are two sides to you, like a coin, you shine on the top side that everyone sees but underneath you are awash with emotions and not spending enough time on you, the real you, the one you put on hold, the one that you seem to feel should take second place to everything. There is such a power behind those eyes, like a deep cavern of empathy and compassion, do you feel everyone's emotions and worry about everyone I wonder. What you need is to do a few spiritual exercises, do you ground and protect and channel energy to recharge yourself. That should help.

Two messages, go left? Does that make any sense?


Xia :o)

Xia,

When I read your post, I must say, you took my breath away. I teared up, and felt chills down my spine......

I'll start out by the throat thing...... Last week my wisdom teeth were pulled out, but I have an unfortunate infection and dry socket where the tooth once was. I am in pain, and part of my gums in the back are inflammed. That must be what you are feeling! It is on my bottom left side.... could that be the "turn left" message? That is the only thing I could think of that involves the left......

You are 100% correct when you said that I am holding back tears. Well, this week it is from the pain of my teeth, but I suspect that is not what you are talking about....... I have an important decision that I must make soon, and it has been tearing me up inside for years now. I truely don't know what to do.

You are also 100% correct when you stated that I take care of everyone else, and have been neglecting myself. While some of the time it is mandated (ie - I have kids that come first), I always do things for people, even if it is inconvient for me. I have a very active mind..... that is, I do fret over others. I will have trouble sleeping when I am thinking about someone elses problems, and I tend to daydream about what I want to say, but I never actually say. This causes a lot of stress in my life. But I didn't really think of it as affecting my life. I just thought I was an over caring person!

This termoil, as I call it, about making a decision, has also caused me to wonder where I went.... I have been talking to several people from my younger days, and they all remember me that way. It is a stark contrast to the person I am today. But I know that other person exists - somewhere! That is why I feel so lost! I have been fortunate with a happy childhood, many friends, things always came easy for me. I was great in school, sports, friendship, you name it... But now, I can't even trust myself to make a simple decision. I can't name any interests, activities, or even what I want to do with my life!! You know when you are a kid, and people ask you what you want to do when you grow up? Well, now that I'm grown up, I would say "I have no idea!!!" What happened to me? Like I said, I am a true Aquarius.... always have been! But I'm lost right now! I really think I have gotten so entwined in others lives for the past 15 years, that I slowly lost mine.....

I will try your excerises that you mentioned. That will be my starting point. You made me feel empowered, and loved. Thank you very much!