a few month before I get a dream
I saw Jesus Christ in my dream and I pray beside Him the Warmth of His heart spread inside my body any way my english do not helps me to contuine talking about my dream..
the day after I go to teach some students I get feel that one of them is sick so I try to find something for him I find a few herbs in my book I put them in my left hand and I put my right hand on his head and I ask God to protect Him ok he healed soon but :
1- I get bad feels after even bad thoughts !!
2. this herbs becomes darker
sure I try that with some people later on and it`s working !
I need advices
what should I do with that ?!I do not like to do that am programmer and healling is not good for me CZ I feel bad about sick people and thats effects me
also what should I do to stop this ?!
I need help please...

it sounds to me like you believe in Christ, and it sounds like you were given a wonderful gift. wow i dont think i would want to give up this kind of gift, healing is special use it for good and be happy to have it

am not sure if it`s gift CZ I get many bad thought after I use it and people scare from me when it`s work with them and others do not believe untill I do it in front of their eyes ! so I do not like this idea and I only need way to stop that and stop thinking about it either

say a prayer of protection for yourself before you begin to do the work of healings on the sicks.  say a prayer of cleansing for yourself after you finished the work.  without protecting yourself before and afteward, you are allowing negative energy to be transmitted thru you.  don't let this happens, because without proper guards, your body will be drained and weak.

a dream can mean a lot of things. sometimes dreams convine various elements to tell us something specific.

according to the dream dictionary:

Jesus often represents what in you is really your true self, as opposed to the ego self that you perceive yourself as being.

If the Jesus in your dream is the crucified Christ, it may be a symbol of martydom. If you identify with this figure, so that you are the wronged sufferer, ask yourself what purpose is being served by adopting this role> Does it make you happy? Well, pain may give you pleasure if it helps us to feel 'different' and superior. (And that is often the other side of a martydom complex: an inflated view of self - inflated by fantasy.) But to get haapiness by making yourself unhappy is self-contradictory.
Your dream is probably telling you to look at yourself objectively, to get rid of the fantasy that has taken possession of you.

If the Jesus is healing someone - the figures in a dream represent you - the figure probably represents Nature's power of healing that lies within yourself.. The fact that the healing Christ has appeared in your dream is a very good sign. It means that your unconscius is offering you its healing power. Don't refuse it.

If the Jesus figure is pronouncing forgiveness it may mean either you have been suffering from guilt-feelings and you have identified these as symptoms of an inner conflict and are now ready to let go of the guilt and the tensions; or that your unconscious is now offering you the means by which tose guilt-feelings and the associated paralysing anxiety can be laid to rest once and for all.

If the Jesus (Christ) figure is suggesting submission and self-surrender it may be showing you a pattern in your life that you need to change - a negative pattern of submitting to 'fate' or 'circumstances outside your control'.

If the 'risen' - resurrected - Jesus appears in your dream it may be taken as an auspicious sign of potential self-renewal: the possibility of rising to a new and fuller selfhood, leaving behind all deep internal conflict, anxiety and discontent.