i know that but i don't want to be wrong and ppl think that im a fake ya know, I don't know its hard to explain

You can only say what you feel and in some cases what you see, if you start to say to yourself that you are a fake than that's what you will be, you need to start to believe before you can go on.

that is an emotinal problem that i have to get over with, when you are put down all your life it hard to be confident with yourself, and i know i have to believe in myself y heck im just starting to know myself again after all these years.

don't worry candlea, ppl here don't judge you we all mistakes, don't u think if you were a fake that ppl would be able to sense that without reading your posts. if someone wants to pretend to be something there not, that's on them. i can tell when ppl are lying. i don't say anything, because there is a reason for all we do. it's not up to to me to judge others.
so don't be afraid of what ppl think, and don't let your brain play that radio station  k-^%(* tune it into k-joy. our minds are very powerful, you may have a real ability but won't let it grow because of what ppl might think. or that maybe your a little unsure if what you feel is real or in your mind. you seem pretty normal to me (not crazy) so it's probably real. if it interests you. and i would say it does because your here. go for it, screw the ppl who judge u.  just think in time you might be able to feel ppl like that coming. and u can b ready with a big  

blackcat

thanks samson and blackcat sorry it turned out to be a therapy sesion lol. But i know what you mean and i will try to help here on the board as much as i can, thanks for the support.