† † †I have reached a stage in my life where i don't know where i am headed and wanted to know what's next. I worked very hard all my life despite having a good fate line with many life changing significant events did not get any Happiness and no satisfaction from life.
Current Age: 51.6yrs
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While such questions come from real seekers, who are always thinking, seeking, are quick in thought, and always searching, as your palm reveals too.
Life, and childhood, moulded you to restrict your emotions in order to perform in life.......
Since age 28/29 you actually fell into the trap that you are talking of.
Not exactly a trap, but a 'situation' of sorts.
Reminds me of reckless ways give way to stabler ways from then......
Age 45 gave you the direction which led you feel the lonely that you feel.
Yes, your question is very genuine.
Not sure, as your pics are not good enough; which I do not need here; a very liberally giving person, who is not able to balance finances from age 28.