I've been studying palmistry for a while.  I think my Saturn mount is very strong, because I have triangles and tridents under it.  My Saturn finger is thicker than the others and the nail on that finger is shorter and more square than the others.  My Apollo apex leans way toward Saturn so that helps me a bit to not be so morose.  Saturn gives me a huge interest in the occult, especially since I have the intuition line near Luna.  I think I would be a lot better at it if I weren't so depressed.  My headline is wavy and I think its because I'm so depressed.  I have had my heart broken a lot, and sometimes I feel like I have nothing to live for, because I can't have the one thing I want- love.  I have huge islands on my life line, fate line, and heart line, and they go on for about 5-10 years, and this sucks, because I have an inner line of mars to help me live through all of it.  This means, I will suffer.

Some of you might think I'm being overly negative, but it's hard to be positive when I'm a Saturn type.  If someone can convince me that my entire life is not doom and gloom, then maybe I can be happy again and stop taking anti-depressants.

The doctor's say there is nothing wrong with me.  I'm just really fragile.  
I try working out, but sometimes I feel like I'm going to collapse.
Everything You said about my heart and head are accurate.  
The Venus girdle part was accurate too.  I'm usually sad because my friends blow me off, or guys constantly use me for my body and break my heart.
I'm really lonely.  Sometimes I feel like I have nothing to live for.

I know things will get better soon, but I know the good things will disappear as soon as they start and bad things will happen to me again, outside of my control.
I do everything in my power to make my life better.  I'm dancing every week for exercise at a salsa club ( to help my heart...).  I went to college and graduated.  I'm really
nice to people and hope they will be good friends to me in return.  Nothing seems to work out the way I plan it to.  It seems everything is out of my control.

You said I will find a partner at age 35.  When I looked at my palm, it looked like I would find one around age 26, and get divorced.. and find another one at 35...

Its all my choice in the end.  But, if I like a guy, I will marry him, and if I don't, I wont, so I don't think that part of my hand will change, lol.

My mood is a little better right now, because I got a lot of sleep.  I feel a bit hopeful.

Thanks for the reading.  I'm sorry my lines are really fine, and its hard to get a good picture, but I thought they were interesting.

Dear Lylak,

Please consider stop taking anti depressants, because they are dangerous, and can make you much MUCH more depressed till suicide thoughts.
I can give many examples of violent outbursts, due to anti depressants.
Instead taking pills, find good coping skills for your intuitive and sensitive nature. You are like water. Right now you picking up to much from environment
and that is why you became cloudy water. Water needs to flow, to purify and renew yourself. With anti depressants you freeze yourself.

Do not let the lines in your hand rule your life. We all have misfortune in our hands for some degree. I invite you to look at mine.. Everybody hurts.
It is just in your own hands, how to cope with it. Change your attitude. It is not life that is is suffering. Your thoughts about the situation creates suffering.
And also do not forget, the ones that get the most pain, are -at the same time- getting the biggest opportunity to grow strong. Nothing is without reason.
Maybe when you learned how to breath through your pain, you are strong enough to help another, sourced from your own experience.

You are a sweet girl, instead of suppressing your emotions with pills, let them flow freely, feel the depth, try to love the depth, as well the highs and the lows.
It is part of life. And most important, it is part of your being. Let it be. Let your being be. You don't need pills to suppress who you are!
You do not need pills to fit in society 'hasty' norms!

I will try to help you, later this week when I have more time I will look deeper in your hand. But my first impression is not that negative as you think about it.
There are definitely worrying lines, but as I said previous year, you can overcome anything with your mental power! So use it on this moment when you most need it!


Take care,
Maya

Thanks Maya for your kind words!

Thanks Maya for your kind words.  I feel a lot better.  It's almost like an angel was telling you what to say.  =)

You're right... I think the pills freeze my emotions.  I've been taking them less and less actually.  I'm learning to accept things
and cope better.

I feel like this world is an evil place, and its hard to fit in, but I think maybe you're right, that if I try to refocus my energy on helping other people
I can find joy during the bad times and good times of my life.

Happi was worried about her lines, and you have some hurt in your past on your life line.  

I posted my hand so I could join the (bad line) club.  =P  
I think I won the bad line contest!  =P (4 islands around ages 35-50 on my heart, fate, intuition, and life lines. )
It seems a lot of the sensitive people go through a lot, but It could always be worse.
We will just have more opportunity to be stronger I guess.

We all have really good qualities too.  =)