Though I am a nurse and deal with people on daily basis, I am not really a people person. People effect me too much, it is hard to stay in my own centre, which makes me a little social phobic.
And I really get frustrated with the blind consuming western society. All about money, power and status. I indeed hate it, and don't want to be a part of it. I was quite a rebel to find my own place in the world. Though I learned that rebellion eventually is only self-destructible.
Yes I am very Idealistic, sensitive and trustworthy. Sometimes I live in a pink bubble, and need to thicken my skin.
Also Idealistic in my goals, sometimes my own ambition is driving me nuts. Need to be patient, and accept the way things are right now, right here. I really want to change my nursing carrier into making music.
And because I am not there yet, (don't know if I ever will be there) I cant find peace with myself.
I also explained the island in headline, as my ADHD.
That meditation is healing is completely true. I was diagnosed with Hepatitis C, I started meditating and visualising, and somehow in some mysterious way the hepatitis C was cured, without any medication or treatment. Like some miracle happened. I was so thankful, what a bless.
Later my discipline faded, and right now I don't meditate regularly. And I again notice that my restlessness is stronger, I am not centred, too sensitive for peoples moods. and its affecting my health. When my mind isn't centred , my body is very clear and warns immediately.
Thank you Pravin Kumar. You reminded me I do need to meditate again on regular basis. It is not the world or the people. It is my own state of mind that makes me sick.
God Bless you too
Maya