I’m in desperate need of help. This may sound bizarre considering I’m only 16 years old but I find this true scary, and interfering with my life a whole lot. It’s a combination of several things, but the strongest two are my succubus like tendencies and my desire to collect souls.

I’ll dive into my soul collecting first. I have a butterfly necklace in a sort of gothic victorian design that I wear every single day, given to me by my step mother. I’ve always had a desire to control people and somehow…envelop them. Since I got the necklace I’ve also got an empty notebook, and what was once a small fantasy I started making a reality. At first I tried to get my girlfriend to agree to sign a contract, but she had already signed a contract with a spiritual love we fondly refer to as “Mr. Dark” who’s an impressive magician. Before this all happened I had entered a euphoric dream like state, and had signed away my soul to a demon who had been following me for a long time. He hasn’t yet hurt me and one of my friends idiotically co-signed as a witness before actually reading the contract.

I’ve managed to collect 5 souls so far under contracts in my book, and each time the person making the contract signs I feel a warmth envelope my body and spread through me, my head begins to spin and I enter that euphoric state once more, and my heart swells. It gives me an inconceivable pleasure to do this and I feel myself growing more and more hungry to collect more souls. It’s causing me physical pain not to collect at least one soul a day and leaves me feeling weak and incredibly emotionally unstable. It’s gotten to the point where I’m desperate to scream and cry out my pain.

Now for my succubus issue. I don’t know how unlikely it is because I am rather young, but I’m sick. All I do is sit around, horny constantly. My libido is out of control and it’s to the point where if I’m too tired all I had to do is engage in sexual activity and I’m more alert, awake, and alive than before. I’ve managed to make my girlfriend physically sick from out constant contact, and it’s all without any sexual gratification on my part which just leaves me more frustrated. I constantly feel fatigued and sick, and I don’t have much of a history of any health problems or mental disorders.

One other occurrence I continuously have is a woman coming into my bed, which is odd considering I’m female. Each night she’s there laying next to me, and if I’m laying on my side she wraps an arm around me and cooes into my ear. She claims to be Lilith, Queen of the Succubi. Her hair is about to her mid back and curly, a deep red color I find gorgeous. Her eyes are a deep green and she has horns the color of gold, large bat like wings that can easily be tucked against her, and a tail with a speared end. She always arrives without clothes and a large dog she calls “demon” who lays at the end of my bed and keeps watch on us.

All of what I write is true and in reality I’m just desperate for someone to believe me and offer advice as to what may be happening or solutions to my problems, and even maybe a friend who will message me and keep in contact to help me with further problems.