Ahhhh I felt the power in my runes!!
So I did a lil rune magic.
and then I could feel the energy strongerrr
and I can't use it on anything because I'm not very experienced!!
and and!! I told myself I wouldn't do black magic no matter how power hungry I get!!
I need to do something but I don't know what!!
I want to summon a demon!!
But I can't!!
So now I just want a cigarette.

Why in the world would you want to call something so negative into your life?  There are nicer ways to perform magick that don't harm you, like building a crystal garden in a dish and charging it to protect your house.  You can still feel the energy flowing, which is admittedly addictive, but that should not lead to anything foolish or reckless.  No need to stick your finger into a light socket to experience electricity when you can just as easily use a computer or watch television, y'know?

lol yeah that's so very true.
I would never EVER go near anything like that. I just will begin to dream of how cool it would be when I get power hungry like that.
But. Deep down I am convincing myself that I'm pure, and black is evil. And I talk myself out of it.
So. I'm okay (: lols. I don't get power hungry much any more. I prefer not to really... it's like a drug o.o and then I get all... yeah. I can't explain. but it's uncomfortable.

p.s.
I know it's not cool.
The idea is in a way though.. you can't deny that.
It's mask makes it inviting. I see past it though! I promise :P

Ok, don't get so greedy, young initiate. Wasting a demon's time is also STRONGLY NOT RECOMMENDED. They don't give power, they only teach you to increase it yourself.

Minyassa shouldn't be so short-sighted, because demons are not negative. It is because of THEM why we even know what "esoteric" or "magic" means. They brought us the power we need to evolve as a race.  You really should take a look at spiritual satanism (pagansim). Not dedicating yourself to it, just looking into it.

Don't you know what to use your power on? Try some exercises, be them physical, psychic, social.Empower yourself even further. Try telekinesis exercises. Whatever! And Don't just summon a demon just because you are bored. (You don't even know the correct formulae to evoke them, so I'm wasting my breath on this subject :D )