Ty ammo... but I think it is good advice for someone who isn't afraid of magic too lol... I am not and sometimes I just need to remind myself to look at the other side and not focus on the negative.... something my mom used to say about like minded things... *shrugs* she is smart... and I try to listen to her lol most the time

Nyte

hi
thanks for your advice. I have tried positive affirmations i.e 'the secret' and something called one command that encourages all thoughts to be positive and then your life will reflect this. Nothing really got better,but i guess i did notice there were less things going wrong. I know it sounds like i am generally really negative, but beleieve me i HAVE tried to help myself with any sort opf healing /postive thought pattern possible.  I have tried white magic (someoneelse doing spells on my behalf),shamanic healing ritual, crystal healing, healing in general, cleansing spells, positive thinking, carrying talismans. Chaos still ensues. I have noticed of recent that my the good things in my life are a "mixed bag".

i met my soulmate and he loved me back, but fate did not allow us to be togther as he has mental issues and cannot have a girlfriend until he sorts his stuff out (if ever). helping him woul have made it worse as my interest would have been partly selfish- which is not fair. he had to get there himself. i was/am greatful for experieicing love in its' purest form, and having it reciporcated. But again, as amaazing as this is, is as awful as it is to be denied it.

I have my dream job- with awful circumstances. A horrible woman with issues that is trying to sabotage my career out of hatred.hmm, so there are good things- but always a 'yingyang' effect where the 'good' is twinned with an almost as awful 'bad'. I know noones life is 'perfect', but i am just a little tired of fighting just to get it stable. i am always fighting someone at work or being left by a guy or betrayed by supposed friends. all 3 at teh same time, or when things are good for me, just one. And before you say it- no i don't beleive i dont chase drama. i find these contentious situations uncomfortable, and hate them. I certainly dont enjoy them conciously or subconciously.I have fought with this stuff for half my life. am tried now as have tried so hard.i feel black magic will provide a quick fix as i can only undertsand 15 years of the stuff i have mentioned above continuing despite my copious attempts to end it as a hex- does anyone disagree. this is surely more than just a run of bad luck?

anyway- all advice welcome.

thanks so much in advance

Hope,

           Trust me I have been there myself... where everything seems against you and there is no way to fix it.... there is a very wise soul on here whom I have befriended who has explained very eloquently in the past that when you allow negative energies to influence your life and focus on them, then you will attract more negative energies.... and that the like is also true.... when you focus on the positive and take control of your life, then you will attract more of the things that you want.

I understand who this can not sound like great advice for someone who has issues with magic.... and I neglected to say this before as I did not want to come across as anything but helpful... and I am meaning this in a helpful way, and I apologize in advance if what i am about to say offends or upsets you. However, I feel like it needs to be said.

If you are looking for a 'quick fix' then you are ALWAYS going to be disappointed.... magic even what people term 'black magic' Isn't there to fix your problems for you.... it is up to you to make your life what you want it.... Magic is a tool to use.... much like a car.... I mean you can walk somewhere but use the car to go someplace that is far faster.... But you can't just drive a car... you have to learn how... you have to trust that you know what you are doing... and the more you do it the better you get at it.... You say that you have issues with magic, and therefore you don't really trust it (Yes I am assuming this, but am doing so from past experiences with people who have not liked magic) Magic is like hope, it can be fragile... and the more you believe the more power it has...

This of course these are my views... I hope that you understand that I am on your side and that I would like to hear and soon that things are better for you.

Light, Love, and Blessings,
                                       Nyte

Thank you for your response. i apprecaite your advice, and can see and understand how i come across as negative or victimising or marginalising myself- however i have thought positive for 15 years, done things such as one command/the secret and my life is still ardorous. if i have tried postiive thinking for prolonged amounts of time and still lose jobs, men leave me etc over and over, then not sure what more to do- hence why i hav reached this point of despair. it not a quick fix i am after as such- just a path tot take after 15 years of 'positive thinking' and suffering regardless.
i am interested in magic- however have so much else goping on in my life (i.e trying to keep my job in the face of bullying) that time does not allow.hence why it may seem am looking for 'quick fix' as to be hones tlife isnt allowing me any other choice

Hope,

          Well I am not sure what else to tell you... but in previous posts you had expressed that you were not comfortable with magic... and until you are then I honestly don't think that it will help you out... this is my opinion...  If u are interested in learning more about it then I would suggest reading around the forum and asking questions... if you have time to get on here and post responses to this then you can instead use the time to read around the board and learn... I would be happy to answer any questions you have... But yet again not sure about what else to tell you.

Light, love, and blessings,
                                       Nyte