For a very very long time now I seem to have a monkey that will not leave.  No matter what I do I always end up short never going forward and yes funds are gone before I even see it.  I have some problems with health.  I have seen this in all aspects of my life.  I tried meditation and hysop but that didn't help in fact lately my minds eye can only see darkness when I meditate.  this darkness crept in while meditating one night and has not gone away since.

Okay first of all have you blessed you house? I always say while burning herbs or incense and spreading salt around ALL openings (door and windows, ect.) My house is bathed in the light of (Insert religious deity) and if you do not walk with in this light you are not welcome here... I also when feeling like I am not in the best place in my life or in the best situation the same thing sating I am bathed in the light and that if you don't walk within this light then you can not contact me... (or what ever you would feel would suit your specific needs)

I want to tell you now that after doing this.... I lost a lot of friends who were apparently not very good for me... However, even with the loss I am MUCH happier and healthier now... I also feel like my life has a place to go instead of just wanting to make it one more week or even day... I hope this helps, and if I can help more in anyway just let me know!!

Light, Love, and Blessings to you!!
                                                 Nyte

Hi Webweaver
Welcome to Mystic Board.

Why do you want the monkey to go? It is far more likely that he is here to help you. Personally I don't believe in curses, but I do believe that if you believe in them then they will affect you.

Darkness whilst meditating is not bad, what is it you want to see? All it means is that you have not travelled far enough along the road yet to emerge into the light. How do you meditate? Do you use chants or mantras?
Maybe you are confusing meditating (emptying and clearing your mind concentrating on being and nothing else) with visualisation ( seeing with your mind, and living within your mind.)

Some view the darkness/black as a form of protection believe it or not. It is not necessarily evil. You will know what is bad and what is not.

I agree that all darkness isn't 'bad/evil' which is one of the reasons why I say what I do, I find that if something is meant to be in my life this does not take it away. And that makes me think twice about why it is here, while helping my fear of it.