it seems you are really speaking alot of the stuff on you that you speak of. I don't know anything about numerology ,but i do know that when you concentrate and focus on the bad that you DON"T want to happen....it normally happens cause all your energies are focused on the NOT and the not what you truly want.     You want to be happy......not i don't want to deal with this problem, situation or issue.  If we think we can be defeated, you already are.  jmho.....i so knw nothing but i do know this. universal laws exists no matter waht just like 1+1 will always equal 2 in this realm. somebody else can chime in.