This is my first post aside from my introduction. I'd love to hear any feed back about this experience. What do you think it was? Any tips for keeping connected to it or getting closer? It is normal to not understand each other at first? Is it was I think it was?
Thanks so much for all your help, I can't wait to learn from each of you.


I was lying in bed doing some self reflection and actually had a breakthrough thinking about my own personal acting. (I've been trying to sort out a troubling/toxic relationship) I’ve also been working on meeting a spirit guide and a spirit protector. I’ve been attempting mediation and trying to strengthen my aura, as to avoid emotional vampires and my giving away of energy.  I felt good that I had finally found some sort of answer for the way I act. And when it all came together and I was accepting light force into my aura. I suddenly felt this pounding type of sensation in my chest. Like this ball of energy could just pop out of my chest at any moment. I almost felt as if I could be sick. I stuck with it and thought.. so, this is what it feels like to have a full aura. The feeling started to diffuse through out my body, until I had a feeling of warmth, soothing, tingling vibrancy all over my body. It felt as if that energy and feeling actually extended slightly outside of my body. I felt wonderful, protected and energized and loved.

At that time the feeling started to wan. I thought I should turn over onto my back and focus on my breathing to try to maintain the connection ( I was laying on my right side) I was speaking and guiding myself through the same system, but also adding that I didn’t want to seem to eager or needy, but that I had really enjoyed the connection, that I was grateful and if communication could continue in my dreams that would be fine. (That’s the way I’ve been communication usually) That I was willing to take it slow and not over ask.  

Then the next thing I remember is hearing this faint sound. Mostly in my left ear. It was a harmonic kind of tone, sort of high pitched. Sounded sort of like music, but not of any earthly instrument, kind of like a hum. Could it have been a dis-incarnate voice, yes I thought so at the time. It was pulsing in and out, almost like breathing. It was gradually getting louder and louder. I noticed it getting louder, but didn’t think much of it. Eventually it was almost deafeningly loud, but I didn’t really realize it until it started to fade. In the middle of the loud part I opened my eyes because I wanted to be for sure there wasn’t something earthly I could attribute it to, also to be sure that I indeed was awake. I could still hear the sound, but the longer I had my eyes open the more it faded. I closed my eyes and listened to it fade away which was when I realized how incredibly loud it had really been. As it was fading away I tried to focus on my vision, could I see who was trying to communicate, if that’s indeed what this was? I focused and could see the outline of a woman. If felt as if she was trying to come info focus, but it was just out of reach. The picture was a midnight blue/blackish iridescent color. Splashes of other iridescent colors throughout (not a menacing black, and this is always the color of my "screen") Her outline was mostly in the blue color, I could see hair outline and that was mostly it. At the time, to me it felt like the sound was a form of communication that we just hadn’t perfected yet. She was speaking, but I couldn’t understand, and she was incapable of speaking my language. It faded away and I was left with the snoring that was coming from the right side of the room.  

I thanked my guides for the experience, asked them to join me in my dreams. And made sure to ground my feet to the earth and close my chakra. I went to sleep. It was beautiful. I felt good. I don’t know what it was. But I will certainly try again.

The wool gathering (alpha) state you describe leaves you wide open with absolutely no focus or direction to the spirit input.  The aura is a mental aberattion of the alpha state when you are unfocused.  My suggestion is to actually take charge and focus your attention above such a level.

While you may not claim the black to be menacing, it is certainly a level below where you want to reach.  And spirit guides who want to be heard will be heard.  You will get ideas in your head not so much the ears.  

Working with chakras can and does open the body, mind, spirit to a lot of aberation rather than focused energies and work.  That has certainly been my experience when people need help because that was their focus.  

Meditation is the key to communication because you are alert at the same time as going into other states of consciousness.  Before sleep and when you are going into sleep (alpha) is just wide open and the sleep will be disturbed and not very productive.

Do you have any tips as to a direction to take or a way to better focus my energy? Should I not be focusing on chakras?
Thank you so much for your feedback.

The 5th chakra seems to be where you experienced the energy, it happens like that sometimes when you first start. Focus on centering and being grounded first, and figure out where you are comfortable. The warmth you discribed is aceptance, you being in harmony with your inner enviornment. The more you practice the more open you become. Take it slow untill youre comfortalable.

I would strongly suggest you leave the chakras alone all together.  The chakras are an eastern study and I do not believe have translated well to the rest of the world.  I have found them to contain hidden meanings and besides the 7 major openings are located on the body in line with your Endocrine system.  This is the system that joins all your major organs.  And I don't believe it is important or healthy to align energies with this system.

What I personally use is a flow.  When attuning with spirit realms from the spirit within I tend to allow a flow to enter the body from the crown where I have connected the other end of the energies/cord to the God of my own understanding.  There is protection, grounding and love in a spiritual connection.  And I have found this to be the best protection in the world.

I would remain alert when practicing.  Do meditation when awake, up and functioning, not ready for bed and sleep.  While the alpha state we pass through on our way to deep sleep is similar to meditation, it is a more alert state when consciousness is in use.  And at a meditation level you are taking charge of the practice and not opening to all and sundry energies.

It would appear you have connected on the alpha state to the lowest of all possible levels - the astral.  You will need to raise the vibrations of your practices above this level to receive loving guidance.  Consider the 7 spheres of the afterlife.  While still in the body, we raise ourselves to sphere 3.  It is from there we will continue our journey.  

So our consciousness must be prepared to raise in spirit vibration to that level through our own efforts of spirituality.  Anything below that is not reaching the spirit guidance we seek of a spiritual nature.