Hi i need help please. Everything about myself tells me that im a developing clairvoyant. As a single mum of 3 kids and someone who has an intuition beyond this world, i need help to find my gift that was once so powerful and developing at a fast rate, but is now almost ceased or as my gut tells me, some of it has been 'taken' and its having trouble being restored. I read tarot, angel cards, rune stones and i hope one day to practice crystal healing as i know in my heart im a healer also. My psychic sight has been taken, my dreams are almost now non existant, my touches are rare, the spirits are around me as i can sense them but i cant see them and barely feel their touches anymore. I cant visualise, i cant meditate, i need all the help i can get from someone who is true to god and themselves, someone who is trustworthy and honest. Michael will lead you to me, please hear my cry and his cry for help. Thank you and god bless xo

Hi,

I "hear" something that sounds a lot like panic in your post--panic that you had something special and wonderful and now it's gone and you don't have a clue how to get it back.  I can totally understand that feeling, because I've gone through it over and over again--thinking, from time to time, that I've totally lost or am in the process of losing my ability to see and talk to spirits and all the amazing things that come along with that.

The key to what I just wrote is in in the words, "over and over".  The point is that I really DON'T lose it; it just changes from time to time, or seems to fade for a while.  But it always "comes back", and I've finally started to learn NOT to panic, because panicking only makes things harder to see, and feel.  So does "trying too hard."  I know now that these things come in waves/cycles, and that the periods during which it all seems to be "in remission" are the periods of growth and learning if I just remember to stay calm and see where they lead me.

At first, for me, it was all VERY vivid, sometimes to the point where it was frightening (that was when I was wide open, so to speak, and could see everything any spirit who happened to be around was saying, and it could get really frightening).  Slowly it became less vivid, and that worried me, but I finally realized that it was for my own protection--seeing all of that, all the time, could really start to get difficult, to say the least.

I also realized that all that clarity was to get my attention, and make me understand that I wasn't just "imagining things"--that something was really happening (that was about 2 years ago).  In other words, it served its purpose, and when the purpose was taken care of, things became less vivid...not so many "fireworks."

I think the point of the "recessive" periods can also be to teach you to pay attention to what's important, rather than just to the really "cool" things (premonitions, visions, the way things look) that are just distractions.  Think about WHY you want these things in your life--why it's so important for you not to lose them.  What purpose will they serve for you and, more importantly, for others?  Is your ego too involved in it all?  Are you putting it to its best use, or are there other, less "spectacular" and yet more meaningful things you could do with it that will nevertheless be more pleasing to those who gave you the gift in the first place?  Has it become in some ways more important to you than the things and people in your more mundane day-to-day life?  

I'm not saying that any of the above is true for you--just questions to ask yourself.  If you have those gifts, they were given to you for a reason, and there are always a series of "tests" to see if you're using them the way they were intended to be used.  It's a way to examine if there are better ways to live your life.  The gifts won't be taken away (although I assume that if someone were to use them very badly and with bad intentions they could be).  Just keep working on appreciating their real value.

I'm still not beyond panicking.  Just a few days ago I was bugging my "guide" again for the hundredth time, complaining that things were fading, that I was afraid it would all be taken away, etc.  He said, very simply, "Open your eyes and you'll see."

So I calmed down, and looked around, and let myself see without "pushing" things, trying too hard, etc.  Sure enough, it was all still there.

Doe

The outlined lessons begin with the Tools of Your Own Consciousness for a good reason - we get in touch with ourselves through self-culture.  Knowing ourselves first is a good step to opening to others - spirit guides for one.  The more you know, the easier it becomes to attune.

Meditation is a tool to calming yourself first, then attuning to spirit from within to without.  This is where the exercises work to meet up with your own personal guide in partnership and attunement.  Working with a specific guide brings much needed love and protection to the exercise as you open to soar with the wings of spirit.

Step by step is a good approach.  Most of us want to jump in the deep end of the pool before we have even gotten wet in the shallow parts.  Be patient with self and spirit.  Then when attuned it will all make more sense because you have worked on self as much as skills of mediumship or psychic ability.

If I may butt in, I just want to say thank you for such an insightful reading you gave me. You are such a big help. Blessed be.

I have faced this as well as most everyone I know. I had to get in touch with myself again and then I realized I needed to Keep my aura clean and clear of negative debris, which we get all the time. So, I cleansed my aura, and I do that on a daily basis and I also aligned my chakra's and began meditation again. I found with myself that when this happens, I am ususally not paying attention to my own spiritual needs, which include meditation, aura cleansing, chakra clearing and aligning and simply just standing barefoot under the night sky in the yard alone. When we do these things, and reach out, it will once again all make sense and you will find that you go through these things to learn something. Write down the lessons and learn from them, you never know when you will be called upon to help someone else. What we do isn't a job, it's a big part of who we are  and how we interact with and help others. We cannot help anyone until we take care of ourselves first. There is a lot of work involved but it is very highly rewarding.

Gentle Hugs,

Julie