*smilies* Well what I had actually meant was the spirits of the children that I played with... I never knew them when they were alive... so it is more like they lost me a little when I kept growing up and they didn't.... Most of them are crossed over, they just would come and play with me for a short span of time... I have always had a hard time making friends in the real world... the internet has always been a blessing for me, as I can wait to reply until after I pass a feeling or something that might have happened... *smilies* but I also think that my young friends are why I still have all the wonder that Doe talked about... like being a kid in a candy store, I have learned to cherish somethings that most adults over look... *shrugs* D always says I am such a kid...  I think that it is one of the things that he loves about me the most as I am not like other girls in his life...

    Anyways talk to y'all soon,
                                           Nyte

Whoops--sorry for misunderstanding, Nyte (but glad you didn't actually lose a bunch of childhood friends in the other way)!  I'm also glad you understand my "kid in a candy store" remark--that might sound strange to some people, but that's how it feels to have all these new, unimagined things just start blossoming for me, and to be learning so many new things, and having David around,  and just feeling more than ever that I want to be a really good person and do good things.  I know--that probably sounds totally dopey and phony, but it's really the way I feel.  It just makes me happy (even when it's sad, because I feel that I can sometimes help).

I guess I'll always be kind of a kid, too (in spite of appearances!).  I think there's something to be said for that!  

I also agree about the Internet being a blessing in terms of making friends (as well as professionally).  For me, though, it's just because I can be pretty shy, and I do tend to hang back and watch people rather than just jumping into social situations (usually, anyway).

Isn't language wonderful Nyte.  I got that you were talking spirit children but sometimes it is just hard to explain.  LOL

*smilies* Language is wonderful!! I love words... all of them, even like Doe said the bad times are not so bad if you look at them the right way.  Sometimes I think that there are things that only a soul can say, and I really wish that I could find the words to even come close to be a part of what it means... *shrugs* but those who need to know what I mean always do, so that is in it's self a blessing too....

   Nyte