Doe,
       *smile* I am happy to see you so at ease with who you are... I know that I did that too for awhile and when ya finally figure it out that you don't need serious help. (I too agree that mental disease is very serious and that it shouldn't be laughed at, unless your laughing at yourself for thinking you were when you are clearly not) Not all spirits have our best interests in mind and some of them like to play 'pranks' (which aren't funny) on people who are gullible. Like you did by asking for proof and by trying to search for answers in a world where answers are not easy to come by, you showed them that you aren't that way and that you will stand up for yourself, often that is all it takes.

My best friend Jenny, often looks for the experience and not the point to it or the reasons why it happens, she is still fairly new to it all, but she annoys me more than not by telling me that this or that happened and not what was going on or what she was thinking as it all affects the outcomes and why we see and feel what we do. She has been feeling down a lot lately and didn't make the connection that she wasn't doing the little things that make her happier... sometimes ya just need to sit and think...

I am very happy to find out that you do..... Take care!

                                      Nyte

Hi, Nyte,

Well, SOMETIMES that's all it takes, but there are some stubborn ones (I always remind myself that, although some things are bound to be different, spirits were living people at one time too!) with too much time on their hands, or something, and really go out of their way to work my nerves (it is MUCH better now that I realize that there's really nothing to be afraid of, and just let it all kind of roll off my back--sometimes I still get freaked out, but not much).  On a couple of occasions I've told a spirit who was trying to scare me, or something, that she or he just sounded like a bad, low-budget horror movie, and should get some better lines or find something else to do!

You're right--the things going on in your own life do seem to have an effect.  The consistent message that I've been getting for a long time is that I need to learn to love myself.  So, I thought--what makes me love myself?  Exercise and taking care of my body in other ways, doing something nice for someone, getting off my butt and cleaning the house so it's nice for my son when he gets home from school, writing something good, sitting in the sun for a while--simple things, but they do seem to make a difference both in how well I see things and in my interactions with spirits (again, not always, but usually).  It's a learning process, but, as I wrote today in an earlier post, I think I've got time

Thanks for the nice post.  You sound as if you put a lot of thought into all of this, too.

Doe

For me it is more kinda lived and learned and it's now common sense and that makes it a little harder to deal with stubborn people.

i see them too, but i thought that it was an optical illusion

I saw them a lot when I first started seeing spirits.  I'd see them in the dark; they were just dark shadows seeming to fly almost in formation past me and through the room--they never bothered me, but it was strange.  They were somehow just less "sophisticated"-looking than the other spirits I saw...somehow they seemed less capable of complex thought, or something.  I don't know who they were, exactly, but they didn't seem malevolent in any way.  I don't see them any more, but I don't think they were optical illusions.  They did seem to  have some kind of purpose, and to be kind of in their own world.  Who knows?  Wish them well; they won't do you any harm (at least that's my impression!).

Doe