When I offer it bothered you yes I mean you noticed it .. and I'm somewhat
wondering what the reason most people respond brashly about common uh:
choice English language.. and it seems you have some tension which keeps
you wanting to meditate so you may relax.. as if you would join a cause and
follow a strict path .,. meditation includes clearing the mind and centering the
energy so you may begin new thought with clear mind and proper balanced !
thought so the new energy will be restful and positive clarity attuned to the #
ability to begin proper accord conscious mind and not the glum thought wate
a mind when it did practice meditation and not follow the mind to relaxation.
The path you follow will be a standard of restful accord when you realize the
meditation will be good and peaceful and the lacking energy will be realizant
you were away without meditation and the mind flows out energy you should
keep as tea was known to lessen the nutrient balance with the body urinate.

When the energy you describe as light and protected (if rigid power) was not
proper meditative balance rather a protection of the psyche so the mind may
protect the body ..  it was not common meditation ,. it was magical abjurent,
with meditation as a focus of aum,. alchemy like spell without reason to keep
you unaware .. though mixed with a want to be relaxed and vigilant ,. it was:
reason proper aligned to the likes of a protective magical likeness (abjurant)
to the way the mind can be calm and placid and the senses can be awake to
a way about (mana) the power one keeps in the sleep layer of the mentalist
balance between awake and asleep ,. as bodily posture can help energy flow
during meditation .. though the energy transferred as attracten to the fellow,
who was next to you ,. was not likely without basis in power.. I don't give uh
alotta significance to the spiritual power of the person you leaned toward ,. ,.
more like the focus the person kept as almost technical attractant. So you uh
may notice the role one did cast magical focus and another did accept as the
misnomer of personal power a kinda focus on abjurance.. though not power ,
the mind controls the meditative like controlling it .. like the focus was almost
egoist and the 'candle or crystal lamp' spell was focused on showing mentally
dominant power as if a kinda parlor trick .. as if one was assisted with the @!
way it occurs appearing to be masterful.. OK.  When you say you were both:
Awake and Asleep and Mindful as "Vigilant" (or similar) it reminds me about,
a military code phrase : "DarkWate" . To stay vigilant with the training not to
fall unaware during duty of poste~ or night watch .. and if you mean singing
bowl by crystal bowl .. I respect monks with 'ringing' bowl meditation though
I am not one to offer common assessment toward the power of Shakti as uh
I like Iyi Vedic Magic Meditation not energy power bodily chanting.. mantara.

Longer statement I see .. I will leave it with : center your energy and mind !!
Be mindful with the thoughts you have enmente~ , clear and meditate     Evard

Evard, I hope I did not offend you by stating I did not understand the languaging well, I meant no offense, see it as like when a doctor tells you things in medical language and you look at him and say "in English " please, I think I understand most of what you say, but I am a simple mind so it takes some breaking down and looking up meanings of words.  It sort of reminds me of Yoda from Star Wars, you are yoda in that sense.  I enjoy the challange though Evard, so thank you!  Also I do meditate alot for two reasons, the first is I have an anxiety dissorder, along with a seizure dissorder that is provoked by my anxiety.  So since I dont like to be medicated, I have chose to try to relax myself in everyway I can.  Second, I am empathic and Telepathic, the empathy tends to lead me to anxiety from others and other emotions as well, so I have joined this mediations group to learn how to deal with those issues also to control them.  With all this, I have realized that my issues are gifts that I would like to learn more on using possitivly, along with some other gifts I would like to learn.  My need to constant meditation was my impatience to be able to contact a spirit guide as everyone was talking about in my group, and I had not been able too.  I felt blocked, but learned I was the cause of my block, therefore I am now unblocked  (laughing) .  Apparently from another post, my guides told that I was being taken care of, I felt that, but wanted to hear them, see them, something, didnt understand why I couldnt.  My lesson was learning patience, i didnt automatically learn to be patient, but I think I realized I just needed to give it time, and realizing it was enough, once I stopped trying so hard it happened, alot had todo with what a friend of mine and myself had to work out too, which patience was apart of,because we had to be patient with what each of us was learning an accept that we were not the same person, although we were going through this together, that what we needed to learn was different for each of us, so we had to seperate our frienship to do this.  We were so close, people were confusing our reading when we were together.