It's not that I try hard. but, i do want to meditate. each time I try to do it, odd thoughts come to my mind. the first things that occurs to me is "what am i doing? and why? then i start making myself understand, this is an exercise that restores mind, controls thought and brings peace. I light a cigarette and again think do I really need these? before I can find the answer out, something or the other happens, and i forget what I was doing. hours later I remember that I started doing meditation and left it as soon as it started.

what to do?

What is meditation (to you)?  

It is not stopping the mind, it is controlling the mind.  As it is about our own experiences, we all can do it.

Do not try to stop the mind.  Use some breathing exercises to quiet the body.  Then visualize a place of peace (a scene from nature, or a simple flower) and keep your focus on this subject.  When it wanders, and it will, blow a gentle breeze to allow the thought to come in and go out, then return the concentration to your place of peace.

Meditation is refocusing of the mind.  One definition of meditation is....to think upon.  So any time you are concentrating on a single thought, even a sort of wool gathering mode, is a meditation.

Im new to this to but one thing that kinda helped me get the idea of it was lisening to a guided meditation. Now you dont want to only practice with that because you need to try and discover the inner you. But it helps you keep focused I find i do the same thing when trying to do the meditation on my own. But now im a little better at focusing. You can find guided meditations all over the internet.

The problem with guided meditation CDs is that they are hypnotic.  The voice used is trying for hypnosis rather than meditation.  There is a difference.  You may want to decide which you want.  

As hypnosis is led by someone else's voice, it might be well to consider your mind's activities.

I thank both of you for your opinions. I agree with spiritalk that meditation CDs are hypnotic. though they help in mind control, take note that you are not controlling your mind. it is the voice that's controlling you. and, I react very negatively to such things.

spiritalk, I can't stop mind mind and thoughts even if I try. nobody can, perhaps. I don't need a cool breeze to to remember something pleasant. even in the midst of the road, i get lost in memories of some long past rain drenched August evening. and the thought goes on till I'm brought back to reality by a shrill screech of a car that applies emergency breaks to save me. if this is meditation, i gain no control over my mind.

And if I arrange an atmosphere at home - silent, quiet and peaceful, I feel tremendously irritated. the silence seems to blast me off. My breathe chokes, I feel throttled. I never tried meditation before. and when I tried, I found these things happening to me. its horrible.