I had been suffering from depression, anxiety and hallucinations on and off for last 19 years. To ease, doctors have advised medicines. Understandably, my mental ability in terms of memory, concentration, complexity analysis  has reduced. My prime concern now is losing these ability than the ailment itself. The doctor has also suggested me to do meditation as medicine alone can not heal.

Meanwhile, I was fortunate to be associated with Prof Minoti Borthakur, who has an unique ability to initiate anyone into the meditation. I had done a couple of zen meditation session with her with remarkable results. Due to locational distance, I am unable to be with her and carry on.

Can you please help me to restart. You will be making a life bloom again for which, I shall be ever obliged to you.

With warm regards.

Pankaj

Hello Pankaj,
I dont know how I can help you start... but I am sure you will do it soon. You can say its just a  feeling. my husband is on antidepressants too and has started walks and yoga which he does intermittently! I am really scared that he may lose his mental abilities if he doesnt work hard on it now. So just make up your mind and start off tomorros just might be too late.

"Can you please help me to restart. You will be making a life bloom again for which, I shall be ever obliged to you."

Hi there
Are you still looking for some guidance. Go to "You Tube"  and type in meditation/guided meditation. You will find plenty. Kelly Howell and Deepak Chopra are really good CD's to pick up as well. Buy some really good head phones and your set.
Light and love

Hallo,

I read that u already do some zen meditation session before, i think u should try to do it just by ur self... If u still confuse, search some videos from youtube will help
mediation will rise ur serotonin level, and it will help ur mental balance
this neurotransmitter is low in the brain of a depress people...
Do it routinely, for about six months u will feel more balance and healthy.
I had some depression states in the past and my mood is not stable but after practice mediation, it really helps a lot.
And btw, please, don't stop ur medication, u need it to control ur dopamin level. This neurotransmitter produce hallucination if the level so high in ur limbic system.
Please go to the suitable doctor to find some help and guidance.

well i forget to write, the imbalance neurotransmitter level will damage our brain...
sometimes when the level so high in some types or too low for the other types and if it continue for such a very long period, the damage will become permanent if u don't take ur medication
this damage shows by the decrease in cognitive functioning