Thank you for your advice Prof.    I will try to do this.  I feel like such a...novice/newbie/mental patient where FOCUS is concerned.  I like this site because I feel like I can be open about my shortcomings on this subject with only a modicum of true embarrassment.

My brain just doesn't always know how to let go.  Actually a very close friend of mind, years ago, suggested Buddhist meditation to help me through a medical condition I had a long time ago.....and things happen, and I stupidly didn't follow through.  The major part of the medical problem went away, so I ignored it.  Stupid, though.  

As for your question.  I am not sure how to answer it.  I am notorious for being one of those people that paces - my father noticed it, he does it, too.  I am always the person in class with their legs bobbing up and down underneath the desk.  I thought only boys were supposed to have that energy, but I'm pretty gurly-gurly, I can't help myself.   (I thought this was a Gemini trait -- but I'm merely a Libra.  Where does this nervousness come from, I wonder.)

So, maybe, I'm not a sitter.  

I also think, maybe the paddle would help.     I simply have no focus.  

Prof. Akers, may I ask you.......did you study in Asia?  

Anyway, I don't mean to ignore the other posts, of course.  I appreciate everyone's insight and replies!   This is just something I need to do and I can use all the help I can get.

We have a great Buddhist Monastery about 40 miles from my house, I first went there over 30 years ago so it's been there a long time. The monks were all Tibetan when I first went there but quite a few/if not most are now European.
Get the breathing sorted first before you even try to do anything else.

Well, I think I will start this morning on the breathing.  I have to start somewhere after all.  In my area there are many Buddhist temples but I wouldn't know how to approach them really, nor do I know what they offer.  I am unsure about an actual monastery.  The only Buddhist monks I ever knew were from university.  

Thanks again.  Hopefully, I can make some progress with a little bit of quiet.  

Plug your ipod in with something soothing - use technology, make life easy.

Yep, that's what I'm now off to do.  Irish music and Gregorian chants really help me on that.     I love ALL kinds of music (and I mean ALL music) but if it's got too many words in it I get distracted for these specific purposes.