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AncientTraveler
Age: 25 Zodiac: 
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 Posted: Sun Apr 22, 2007 2:33 am |
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Hello Everyone,
I am new to these forums and have been drawn in by your insight and support of each other. Bless you all on your path to enlightenment. May I start by telling a little about myself and where I'm at in life. I know it's lengthy, but I just think it would help if you know more about who I am. Maybe you all can help.
My name is Matt. I am a 20 year old resident of the mountains of North Carolina, USA. My whole life, I have known that I am here for a specific purpose. I have always had a deep interest in the paranormal, supernatural, and spiritual. I grew up going to church and striving to be a good person. But no matter how hard I tried to be satisfied in my spiritual walk, I could not shake the deep knowledge that there is much more than what I had settled for. I won't go into detail but after a series of catastrophic events in my life, including very young and sudden deaths of my brother and my closest friends, I began to question life and my idea of what comes afterwards.
I decided to put aside all of my preconceived ideas of God and spirituality for awhile and start from scratch...with new eyes. I was rejected by the Church for this and I stopped going. After finally shaking off the brainwashing that I had succumbed to, I had a year or two of quick spiritual advancement. In this time period I was also attacked heavily. Drugs...alcohol...bitterness... But I could not forget who I really was. I just KNEW that I was here for a specific and important purpose. I learned much about the nature of the spirit through strict meditation, some psychedelic drug use, prayer, astral projection, and near death experiences. The main thing I notice though is how fast this information comes to me. When I ponder the nature of the soul, it's like BAM! All at once...not as though I am learning these things for the first time, but more as though I am REMEMBERING them. I can discern truth from lie...sometimes I wonder "Is that the way it works?", but when truth comes to me, I know beyond a shadow of a doubt because I've been there...I’m remembering it. I have dreams, visions, and memories of higher planes. In this town, I am known to some as a spiritual leader...and to most as a lunatic.
I can pinpoint several times in my life where I was ready to give up...to just move on to the next life and leave these people to die. But every time I got to that point, something would happen. Sometimes it would be an encouraging dream. Sometimes, an undeniable voice from within telling me to hold on...that my time will come and I will know what I came here to do, and until then, grow and become strong for my task. There have been several times when a perfect stranger would encourage me to keep going, just at the right time. One time, an older friend of mine pulled me aside, and told me that God had spoken to her and she had to tell me. She prophesied that I was meant for great things for God. That I will know when the time comes. That I was going to be with only one woman, and there will be children. She told me to hold on and follow the path of truth, and I would know what I’m supposed to do when the time comes.
I moved to Asheville, NC awhile back by myself and I got to a point where I felt lonely, and worthless. I was ready to stop trying again... One day, I was sitting on a bench downtown playing my guitar...many people stopped to listen in wonder as I was accustomed to... Then a little girl stopped and watched. I wondered where her parents were. (She had to be only 5 years old) She just smiled peacefully, and said, "You're doing good, Matt." Somehow I knew she wasn’t referring to my guitar playing.
I was shocked that she knew my name and I stopped playing to look up. I looked in her eyes and was rendered speechless. She was an older soul...wise. I could see it. I couldn’t say a word. She just smiled at me and skipped off around the corner. I sat there confused for a second and then looked around the corner where she had skipped off to, but she was nowhere in sight. No parents or adult guardian...
These are just a few of the experiences that I've had in my short lifetime. I am an old soul. I truly believe that I am here at this specific time in history to teach truth, or to help people. I’m just not sure of my specific purpose yet. I feel that I am in a strengthening, and waiting period in life.
THE DREAM…
One night, after a troubling evening, I was crying out to God for some guidance… To show me why I am here. Just to give me something so that I’ll know who I really am and why I am here.
I was dreaming normally, when I suddenly woke up… but I wasn’t in my bed. It was more of a lucid dream. It wasn’t like most dreams, where you are being “told a story”, it was more like I was conscious and fully aware of my feelings and intentions. And it didn’t “start” somewhere…it was more like I was entering a story that was already in progress…
I was standing in darkness…not focused on my surroundings, but on a doorway (more of a portal to the physical realm) that was directly in front of me. A tall man, who I seemed to know as an elder to me: a spiritual guide that I respected, was standing to the left of the doorway facing me. He had a serious face. I was holding a sword in front of me, not for battle, but my palms up, sword laying long-ways across my hands… I was waiting for a signal to begin. I knew that I was chosen for an important mission. The man looked at me and nodded once, but did not say anything. I immediately ran for the portal, sword cradled to my chest, and crossed into another realm. I was in a hallway, poorly lit, with dirt floors. It almost seemed to be a war zone…the walls were concrete and there were some small holes in the ceiling where sunlight was pouring through. I focused my vision and I could see through the walls, where I saw (more like “sensed”) dark spirits tormenting and attacking people in rooms ahead of me. Somehow, I understood that they were desperately looking for something. I had to hurry before they got to me. I could hear the screams and cries for help of tortured humans. I ran straight down the hallway looking in each room, trying to find the right one, although I wasn’t entirely sure what I was looking for. I came across a small square room…empty with concrete walls and a dirt floor. It had one small barred window on the right wall (the door was on the left side of the room.) I knew this was the one. I hurried inside and searched the floor until I found the right spot. I knelt down and began digging furiously with my hands and made a hole that was about 6 inches deep, and 3 ½’x6”. I gently laid the sword in the trench, and pushed dirt over top of it and packed it down. Almost immediately the freshly buried hole burst with blinding white and blue light, shining brightly as if the sword had burst into intense flames. I was surprised and had not expected this… I looked curiously at the light, wondering what would become of it, when suddenly my awareness shifted to all the dark spirits of the earth. All at once, they had angrily turned their gaze upon me and let out a roar, and left alone the people that they were torturing. I receive a psychic message from the man that was beside the doorway saying, “HURRY. YOURE DONE NOW GET OUT OF THERE. THEY WANT YOU.”
I scrambled to my feet and ran as fast as I could out of the room, down the hallway towards the portal. They were gaining on me. I could feel them touching my back as I took a final leap for the gateway and barely escaped with my soul.
My eyes sprung open and I awoke in my bed. I thought deeply about what I had just experienced, trying to make sense of it. I laid there wide eyed, thinking about it for hours until the sun came up… It has been on my mind ever since, and have been through several conclusions. I can’t seem to settle one something specific though… maybe I’m not supposed to know yet. All I’m sure of is that it refers to a specific mission that I came here to do… I’m just not sure of all the symbolism.
Is there anyone that is gifted in dream interpretation that can help me with this?
Thank you all for reading, and I wish you well on you’re journey.
- Matthew Mann
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