try to find the inner peace within yourself...you will never be able to control external factors. See it as a positive challenge rather than a problem.

Hi, sending you positive thoughts.

I realise that this may be a very hard decision but it is one I was willingly and im still willing to make. For a start I would ask if you could live anywhere, where would that be? If it is still the same area then you can choose that also. I would draw a 'destiny board' I think that is what it is called, also do positive spells to attract this new home/improved life towards you.
Im not sure if it had anything to do with us finding appropriate land but I asked the local elementals/faires surrounding wildlife and the land itself that if they helped me get there I would do my best to improve the land for them and that I would respect them etc
I have pesonally noticed that many like minded people gather at certain places. Although we may want to stay in a place, sometimes we must realise that it is time to move on to some place new, when you have done your best for the place but staying there is not doing any good to yourself, thus you not being able  to help to your fullest. You can always go back to a place to visit or even move back in the future if it is ment to be. I personally think of myself like a crystal, I am also very sensitive and absorb the atmosphere around me, although I love the area I live for the wildlife/family etc it does not make my body feel good at all. I realised how much so after leaving the area and then returning and i am now leaving again.
Photos of places can tell us alot,although yes trying to visit does help. I would trust that the area you find will be the right place if you give that energy out. I moved the first time withouth visiting it first, i just knew that i had to go there and now after visiting the area of a place but not the land i am moving again without viewing. Just trying to give you some faith and likeminded experience.
I can tell  from your post that you aneed a break from this place, even if it is not permanent