Salaam all!
I have been going through some tremendous turmoil over the past two years and I feel like I'm barely keeping it together.  My goal for this year is to find myself and what my direction is.  

I've been battling a bit of depression and am trying to deal with it without meds.  I'm tired of medications, doctors, etc.

I think my answers might be found in getting back in touch with my spiritual self, which has been dormant for years due to my marriage, subsequent divorce, and bad decisions on my part.

But in turn, I'd like to send out a hug to all those who need one as much as me.  Who am I to merely ask without being willing to give all the same.

Much love to all of you.  Thank you for listening.

Hi Eithne137,
I am sending you a big hug. I am starting a journey myself to rediscover happiness and battle depression. It is tough. Now that you and I have made this journey our 2010 goal, we have taken the first and the biggest step. Just take it one day at a time. Know that love is all around us; we just need to reach outside of our grey selves and grab it. Hang in there.

Eithne, I'm divorced myself (for over 9 years now) and can tell you I wouldn't and haven't ever thought twice about that decision. I'd rather be happy and single (with my kids) than married and miserable. When you start feeling down about something, get busy doing something - cleaning, cooking, volunteering, working. I wish you luck and happiness.

Thank you all for the kind words.  They mean a lot to me.  It seems like it is everything for me right now, my job, my relationships (both friends and romantically), etc.  I'm getting hit from all sides.  I first and foremost need to learn to detach and not get so emotional over stuff that happens (my job is very stressful and I often clash with people on a daily basis) in work and in life in general.  

I need to learn to see the brighter side and keep in mind that some things in life aren't worth internalizing.  It's making me sick!

Again, thank you so much for the support.  I really appreciate it.

Eithne,
I smiled reading your response. It appears that you are too passionate about your work-- passionate enough to disagree with your colleagues and to make the statement that you need to dissociate yourself. I have found myself in your shoes so many times in my career. Yes, it is important to take a step back and tell yourself that life is bigger than the 9-5 job. I just reiterated this reminder to myself this morning. I have made up my mind to seek a different job-- albeit one that may pay less-- so that I can find myself again. I am calmer today after having made this decision. It just feels so right.

I hope you will find enough courage to make a life change, whatever that may be. That should be our next step. Remove ourselves from the situations that make us miserable and that which trigger our depression.