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Posts: 15 · Posted: Fri Jan 08, 2010 2:09 am

monkey2010 wrote:

Eithne,
I smiled reading your response. It appears that you are too passionate about your work-- passionate enough to disagree with your colleagues and to make the statement that you need to dissociate yourself. I have found myself in your shoes so many times in my career. Yes, it is important to take a step back and tell yourself that life is bigger than the 9-5 job. I just reiterated this reminder to myself this morning. I have made up my mind to seek a different job-- albeit one that may pay less-- so that I can find myself again. I am calmer today after having made this decision. It just feels so right.

I hope you will find enough courage to make a life change, whatever that may be. That should be our next step. Remove ourselves from the situations that make us miserable and that which trigger our depression.

I've considered many times leaving my job. In fact, I had just put in a letter of resignation that was to be effective the first of the year. However, when I took a good look at the experience I was getting and my ultimate goal of law school, I knew to leave my job now would be a big mistake. So, instead of quitting, I recommitted. But I went the additional length to register for my LSAT (law school entrance exam) and made a list of schools to apply for in the fall. I just need to keep telling myself this job is only a piece of my foundation on my way to a better career. It's still hard to detach myself from the personal attacks and criticism (I work in zoning and code enforcement in a very small town so the politics are unavoidable), but I just keep telling myself that when I'm in law school, it will have been worth it.
At least that is what I keep repeating in my mind

Posts: 10 · Posted: Fri Jan 08, 2010 2:39 am

Hey, If you tell yourself it is worth it and the waiting time for LSAT is bearable, then it must be worth it.

You are still young, and the political environment will thicken your skin to prepare for the real deal.

I have read on this MB some self-protection/strengthening exercises that may help you. One example is visualizing the white light protection, whereby you stand/sit up straight and imagine a circle of light above your head that slowly envelopes your whole body and travels through your chakras to protect you from and cleanse out negative energies. I tried it yesterday and again today when I felt most stressful. I actually could feel my body "shudder" out the bad vibes and immediately calmed down. This exercise really worked for me. The advice is to practice this technique once in the morning and once at night. You may want to check it out and see if it helps, especially against those negative jibes.

Good luck with the LSAT. I know you will find a way to make it happen.

Posts: 1248 · Posted: Tue Jan 12, 2010 6:44 pm

sweetie here is a huge hug....much love and huggies

Posts: 15 · Posted: Thu Jan 14, 2010 7:16 pm

Yay! I love hugs...thank you!!! I'm practicing emotional detachment from issues on a daily basis. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't. Today, it's so-so.

But I keep moving forward.

Have yet to crack a book for my LSAT though...must do that this weekend