Thank you all soo so much. Your words have really helped me a lot and brought tears to my eyes. I just don't know how to bring my friends back, or attract/find new ones. :/

Hey Marquitta

I have found that throughout my lifetime people have come and gone into and out of my life.  Good friends part ways sometimes, and that is occasionally how it is meant to be.  I shared things in my childhood with people but after we parted ways and grew down different paths, when we were re-united it just didn't work.

I went through a period where I felt alone, friendless.  I can still remember the terrible feeling when I was house-sitting, on a day of great local celebration.  All around me the noise of parties, but me, I had not place to go, no place I belonged.  But it didn't last. A chance invitation through work for coffee and before you knew it I was inundated with people wanting to be my friend again.  That cycle too has passed and I am now establishing new friends as my life progresses.

Again I am more or less alone outside of my family (who keep me from being lonely, though my social life outside of that is minimal - we are as a family establishing a wider social circle) but having my family as well gives me the strongest sense of belonging I have ever felt.

In regards to finding / attracting new friends getting out there, taking up hobbies / interests is a good start.  Get out there and meet people.  Work / school is also a good place for this.  Sometimes you just have to take the plunge and take up something new, which can be fun in the mean time.  As for patching old relationships, I am not exactly an expert on this.  Not because of their failings, more mine.

Hope things improve,
Rook

Everyone goes through the pahses you are going through- as everyone has advised. Your need to remeber that loniliness and despiar WILL pass, even if it feels permanent at this moment in time.
I also felt friendless at one point - even posted it on mystic board. things turned around suddenly owing to chance meetings and taking the plunge with new hobbies etc and meeting new people.People worthy of me, people that are kind.
If the relationship you are in makes you feel worse- cut your losses and leave it to attract something worthy of you. Yes painful in short term - but less painful that long term suffering.
In the meatine, mystic board boasts SO many kind hearted and pure people you have many friends on here that will help you through.
Ensure that you try and make your life as happy as you can make it - a job you love,hobbies you love, friends that come from those hobbies will be worthy of you.
much love
xx