Hi all,

I can honestly say I have probably just experienced both the lightest and darkest two weeks of my life. I have just come back from an amazing work tri to Ibiza and met a wonderful man who I didn't think was my type but now feel inseperabe as friends - all very odd we have been in swimming costumes together in the pool loking at the stars etc. but nothing romantic has happened. He has told me that he finds it hard to trust girls but I have been told that I am probably one of his true girl friends and he is so fond of me by another grl friend of his. I have since met all of his friends since the trip and feel really connected to all of them. I blurted out the fact i may have a crush on him on Friday though and have no recllection of what he said back to me. Things are still the same and he gave me a massive hug before i left him on saturday but i am massively confused as i always trust my instinct and thought there may have been something there. I saw a clairvoyant in March who said i would meet someone and i would feel very fated, connected with a country with the initial S (Spain??). My Mother is in hospital recovering from a breast op  to try and battle cancer and my dad has been put in a home whist she takes time to recover. It all feels really confusing but somehow still right with him. He seems to have come into my lige at a very freaky time, my dad has been moved temporarily to a care home as he is losing it a bit and can't look after himself at home.

I can honestly say this man is the most soulful guy I have ever met but I think he maybe just doesn't fancy me or is ready for a relationship with anyone after getting so badly hurt by his last girlfriend. (he generally goes for tall, skinny model types and I'm not). Although he isn't my normal type either, I just woke up on a roof terrace with him last weekend, all snuggled and just felt so happy and perfect to be with him, even though nothing has happened. He spent all last weekend with me and gave me a lift all the way home (about 20 miles) on the back of his scooter. The dreaded alcohol was involved on friday and i honestly cant remember what he said to me. Help!!! I really feel this is something big in my life but not sure what is going on or how to process it. Should i just back off and give him some space. He sent me an email and lovely text yesterday, still with lots of kisses on. how do I know what is really happening here and if it's destiny we met in these dark times? i have been invited to go camping with this new bunch and him next weekend but feel I may need to give him space, even though i really want to be his friend still.

Giddy

Hon,  I think you need to go for it and enjoy it.  Even if it doesn't work out, look at the memories you have already created,  That is so awesome.  You are smiling while facing difficult times, what does that say.

Good luck, whateve you choose

Love, Light and Laughter
akdreamer

AK Dreamer,

I feel that I may well have told him how I felt on Friday but cannot remember what he said back - whoops! I know he still didn't make any kind of move and looked a bit bemused, but said nothing awful to me.

Things are still okay between us though and we had two big hugs on Saturday. I was out with my best friend who couldn't see any chemistry between us but one of his best friends asked whether there was something going on and he does touch my knees and silly things like that. I feel like I have a new lease of life whenever i'm around him. He has gone to see his Grandad this weekend so that may throw some things up (his dad died two years ago and this is his Father so feel this may help him. He has done lots this week to get his career going again after not caring so much after his dad died so maybe we are just good catalysts for each other for better times ahead. I hope so x

The issue is your 'need' to have to 'understand' it all, instead of just allowing it to be and unfold.  The need to control, and know as evidenced by your statement...'how do I know what is really happening here and if it's destiny we met in these dark times?'

Of course it is destiny you meet in these dark times..you did, didn't you?  Let go of the need for control, follow 'instinct' and allow it to unfold naturally run its inevitable course.  There is no way to know (based on free will of everyone involved) how long it will last, where it is going, what is happening.  Just let it be and find out.

sweetie here is a huge hug....much love and huggies