I've been going through a chain of unfortunate events for the past two years. Well, mostly, I've been getting sick for really random reasons. First, I got sick with my stomach and something to do with its acid. They didn't know if it was acid reflux or ulcer. Then, I had pain in my wrist. It took them six months to figure out that I have carpal tunnel. Then, I got a bacteria in my stomach and ruined one month of my life. Now, I think I have something wrong with my gallbladder.

The doctors don't know why I'm getting sick a lot. It's like I'm only sick when I'm in college. When I go back home, I'm fine. Well, it still feels weird, but it's not too bad. So, I'm thinking if me being in this college is a sign that I'm going against fate or something.

What if I'm not meant to be here? Is that why we suffer like this? All of my friends are doing well and getting their work done. For some reason, I'm struggling to keep up, and I don't know why. It has been one problem after another for the past two years, and my college is getting sick of hearing about it. They want to kick me out.

I'm scared of losing everything. My career means the most to me, and I know that I'll have a good career even if I don't go to this college. But for some reason, I can't help but want this college. It's not that I'm attached to the campus. In fact, I don't like the campus much. I feel like we're in the middle of no where, but still, a part of me is like I belong here studying my current major. Even though I've been through so many horrible things the past two years, that feeling hasn't disappeared. I feel completely exhausted and feel like I don't have what it takes to prove my college wrong to let me stay, but still, I work because I can't make that feeling disappear.

What does it mean? Am I going against fate? Is that why I'm suffering? Or is it my fate to suffer like this because life is testing me? Can't it give me a break? I've been suffering literally for the past two years straight. I'm scared I'm going to lose.

I believe in God, and he himself told me that he would give me the best option in life last year. So, why is this happening? Why am I on the verge of losing my college? I also met a man at college. For some reason, I am only comfortable with him. It feels right when I'm with him. In the beginning, he didn't like me, and when I was trying to give up on him, he asked me out. I can't see myself with another man. I used to have strange dreams of this man, and this man I'm with now reminds me of that dream guy. For years, I told myself that this dream guy doesn't exist and cried. Now, I'm dating him and can't bear to lose him again.

So, what's happening? Am I not meant to be in this campus? Am I not meant to be with the dream guy? Am I cursed? Is it my fate to lose both my career and my dream man?  

Well firstly im sorry that you have been ill and having a difficult time with things..

Since i was in high school i used to suffer from huge headaches,i went to a specialist many times,scans etc etc.. You name it,they tested me for it.. Then when i was 17 i started to have "acid" reflux or whatever it was.. I had my son when i was 19 and then about 3 months after i had him i got very ill.. To the point where i thought it was easier just to end my life than go through this pain.. It was aweful.. After over a year of being very ill they found out i had post-natal depression and IBS.. Im nearly 23 and still suffer from IBS,my headaches have gone away nearly.. I still get them but not what they used to be like,much better.. And im coming off my anti-depressants.. My health is picking up... But saying that now i am lacking something.. My hair is falling out (im not bald but i lose alot lol) my nails have these little bumps in them,very odd and my skin is so dry.. But i wont give up not getting healthy..

For me i believe all my health concerns were due to things i could not help.. Like stress and being unhappy with myself.. I went through some crap that i thought id never get out of but here i am,happy.. My issues were so deep that it made my life hell and as i worry and stress it came out in my body..

I guess long story short i do not believe it has anything to do with you studying or fate and you being there... Sometimes there are hidden elements to things? Perhaps you're struggling with something deeper maybe? Have you been to a natural healer or anything like that... When our bodies are out of order they can do odd things as a sign there is something wrong.. I just think you should maybe check it out before wanting to give up on your dreams etc... Please dont make the mistake on throwing it all away until you have done EVERYTHING in your power to heal from all of this that keeps you back and unwell... Never give up..

*huggles* and healing energy and my love going to you...

sweetie here is a huge hug....much love and huggies

Hi dear you are too young to face all these problems in life
dont lose hope every thing will be fine , have faith in God
just think positive and go ahead in life
a huge hug and lots of positive energy for you

I am not an expert...so I would refer you to the homeopathic forum on this sight.  I feel all your  health issues are related to "stuffing" feelings and pushing yourself too hard, and all of them are serious and not to be ignored.  Get proper help...please try a homeopathic doctor who will find the cause of your illness{es} and treat it on all levels...not just the physical symptoms.

If you are unsure of your path, first take some time to put aside your preconceived ideas about what you should be doing, meditate, ask your guide for help.

Ask for a reading....I feel something is gnawing at the back of your mind that you are having a hard time facing.  Find someone you feel safe with to help you through it.