I really feel like now I need some one to relate to. I've been with this guy for 6 years. Everyone always said young love like that will never last. I hate the fact that they were right. We had this crazy intense deep love that went far beyond anything I've ever known and now it's all gone. He tells me that maybe one day in the future we can be together again but once my trust is broken, that's it. It makes me so sad to know that I experienced a love so deep but now it's all gone and I'll never have that again, not in the same way at least. In a way I am to blame. I started putting my career first and pushed him away. I need to experience what it's like to be young and unattatched and make it on my own but I don't know if my plans are worth the tremendous sacrifice that we made. Trying to find myself again is taking all of the life and energy out of me. The worst part of it is that we are still living together so even if I wanted to forget him, for now I can't. I know that this man will always be a part of my life but I also know that he will never be able to give me the commitment I want. I guess I'm just destined to be in limbo forever. I apologize for the fact that this post is so long but I really need to express this somehow.

dear. you can never say never, even if it feels like that right now, things change and its all in cosmos hands, your feelings will always be there, even tucked deep away, and that is OK. just be true to yourself about it. but everything dose happen for a reason.

a problem well stated is a problem half solved.

many of lifes failure are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up. BUT that is NOT sayign that putting you and your career first was a bad choice NOT AT ALL, you have to beable to stand alone before you can stand with someone else, and you have to live your life happy and the way you want it! otherwise you will always feel unfufilled. things is happen for reasons un beknownce to you and anyone else, but like i said(maybe too many times lol) there ARE reasons... maybe you both need to grow first in a way. dont be afraid to take the first steps to finding out, and if it wasnt nessicerily right, it is a learning experience, and by continuing forward it is more likely that you will cross paths with what is the right choice (which may or may not be continuing on with him).

smile and live everyday to the fullest. love is hard and it kills slowly, but that dosent mean you have to go down with the ship.

i wish the best for you my dear, do what YOU feel is right for YOU,

thank you so much for your encouraging words.

anytime!! i feel for you, im goign through a similar situation,

what happens happens, just prepare for the worst, and keep going
anything else tht happens will be a pleasant suprise.

and i have a feeling all things will go well for you

sweetie here is a huge hug....much love and huggies