Still haven't heard from him, but today is like a brand new day, i've snapped out of it.  Last night I let myself cry about it.  Since this happened, I was smiling and struggling to act how I usually do even though my body started to take a toll from it.  I think that if I didn't acknowledge it, it would go away but instead i crashed physically and emotionally.  Just the crying alone worked wonders and then today I am taking your advice and staying busy.  I've reached out to my best girlfriends and felt so much better and am running errands. My gut instinct has always been that I will hear from him within the first wk of the new year and some of the psychics I've talked to validated that and others got my hopes up by saying that it would be much sooner and when their predictions failed, I got a little disappointed.  My new plan of action is to just follow my instincts and not let myself take on his pain or emotions (I tend to do that).  I have things I would like to do to better myself so I'll focus on that.  I don't want to leave him, I truly think he is worth the wait.  If it was anyone else, I would've said goodbye along long time ago.  Letting this out and talking about it has helped a lot and I am really grateful I ran into you.  How are things going for you guys?  Let me know.  Have a wonderful holiday or new year and I hope to hear from you soon

Hey, I feel your pain and know what it's like to feel so tired of fighting and not wanting to continue on.
Know that your angels are near and around you, protecting and healing you with each new sunrise that you behold. Huge hugs and keep your head up!
Coloratura

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year to you. Things are going well for me, and thanks for the concern. Stay strong always.

Hi there,

I'm so glad to hear that you're feeling alot better I know it's hard, but sometimes you do really need to cry to let all the emotions out of your system - although it takes a while! Keep me posted on what you're doing with yourself - it's good to hear!

As for me, I'm not doing too bad at all. I'm with my family and friends for 2 weeks over xmas and they are so supportive, so they're really lifting my spirits. My guy did try calling and in the end had to text on my mum's phone to wish me a happy christmas which was nice, but the shocking thing is that I didn't want to speak to him at the time - I'm not quite ready yet and for once, it shocked me that I put myself and my feelings first!! Don't get me wrong, I love him to pieces, unconditionally in fact, which is strange - definitely a love I haven't felt before, but what with the right guidance, I'm beginning to accept the fact that I need to be able to stand on my own two feet and concentrate on what I want, before I can even concentrate on a full blown relationship. Not saying that I don't want it, because I do, but I need to get my head right first Thanks for asking - it's really nice! It's good to be able to get these things off my chest! Hope to hear from you soon!

Wishing you a great xmas and new year!

Steph xxx

sweetie here is a huge hug...much love and huggies