all the time... I think it is like learned helplessness but with my heart...after failing being in a relationship again by the girl acting like she was into me then shattering me.. so far this is every attempt repeated.
I explained an anology to my friend who went through some bad relationships it was something like "it is like they are feeding you and then sticking their finger down your throat and they did the same with me but without feeding me, you might have puked alot more than I, but atleast you got a taste."
I think I am destined to be a hermit and then I become too hopeful I guess.
and yeah this happened recently but it kinda fealt on the down hill for a bit and I have been pretty depressed for about a month or so straight. Just feel so empty in my chest when I focus on my emotions, it started ever since I tried to focus more on my heart chakra and 2nd chakra.
Disconnecting is probably best and I am too egotistical obviously if I think I deserve love of some sort.

sweetie here is a huge hug....much love and huggies

I dont really know what to say....But i do hope your mood picks up some time soon...Its not bad to take some time out to think about things and get thru things...But if you have someone to talk to,i mean someone close to you? that is needed also,i feel....Everyone i think as a time or period when they feel empty and hopeless or feelings of why do i bother etc....We all go thru the hurt at one point....For me a year ago was like that and i seriously dont know how i got here to be happy again....The past 4yrs i had someone was all based on lies and i was gutted to have it end...I dont have much trust left and i did become a hermit at the time...Well semi hermit...I didnt like people and i was angry at people who have love and are inlove or people who were happy and positive..I thought,why me,im an honest,loyal person to be hurt like that...If you try to shift your focus and think positive that would be a mega huge help....I know its so hard when you feel empty and hurt but life is full of ups and downs and it really does depend on how we look at it...There is always something good in it,you just might not see it now?! We get stronger with the good and bad in life,just that the bad stings...Everyone deserves love and the good people always find it,sometimes it takes a little longer to find it......And if it takes longer maybe its not the right time or something...

Many *huggles* to you,my love and positive energy too...Hope you feel better soon. xx

Here's a big hug. Things will get better...Stay strong.

heyyyy dont be disheartened....u still have a long life to live...i'm sure things will be lot better than now.

A big hug for u.
Take care,
Lilac