Hi guys, I guess I just needed a place to rave, so please allow me to borrow this space. I've been feeling lost for quite some time, but recently, it's gotten worse. Being 18 years old and juts out of high school, let's just say I haven't had the best grades, because of my lack of interest in schooling. So now, I am attending a community college hoping to transfer to an university within 2 years...

Just 2 days ago, my car was towed because I accidentally parked on the Sheriff's space. The towing company damaged my car, and although it wasn't severe (one of my rims is scratched), they denied everything. Being 18, I did not know what to do, so I called the Sheriff's office asking for assistance since they said a Sheriff on duty gave me the ticket and was there to witness the towing. The Sheriff's were not only not willing to help, they were awfully rude (hung up my phone).

Then I got into an argument with the towing company asking them to pay for the damage. The argument got pretty big, and they asked me to step off their property because I was taking pictures of the evidence (my car, and the license plate # of the tow truck). I'm gonna stop right here because it's going to take like 3 pages to explain... Basically, before we started the argument, the fee was supposedly $65 to pick it up, but somehow I ended up paying $223 to the tow company. I just cannot get over how I was treated, the damage to my car, and how helpless the cops were... Maybe I was wrong for parking there, but... I dont know... $93 to cops just to get a release form, $223 to tow company, and another $50 for the ticket.

I try to hard to make a living, make payment for my car as well as college, and I lose it in one day... That is my 2 weeks of hard earned money, gone, poof. Maybe I was wrong, but isn't it enough? I just cannot get over having to pay $500 just to learn a few lessons. Maybe this will lead to something good, as they always say, "Skies will clear after a thunderstorm". I just don't even think it's going to come anymore...

Things have just been frustrating with me... I guess it was because of how I was brought up... During my childhood, my parents used to have fights and stuff, and a few years ago, they finally got a divorce. Recently, I just found out my dad has another woman for a pretty long time, and they just got married or something.. I mean this doesn't disturb me, I wish them best of luck because I believe fate, and that some things are just not meant to be you know? But how my dad acts towards me, being so distant and very polite, that's not how he is! He used to talk to me as if he was actually my dad, never used words such as "please"...

All I ever wanted was a happy and simple life (I guess that's what everyone says huh). All my motivations are because I look forward to having that happy and simple life. To my definition of it, it is just spending time with someone for the rest of my life you know? I work hard right now, try to save money so that in the future, I will enough saved up to support my family. Every time I see someone playing with their baby, and seeing the baby giggle, it just makes me smile inside, knowing that someday, I am going to be doing that to my kid.

I don't know why I never had success in finding a that special someone. I want to blame God for not bringing her to me, since I've been searching for her, but I know I can't. I just think that maybe God forgot about me? This I don't know. It seems like only that person can bring me back on track, but I don't see her yet. If I were to see it from the modern point of view, I can surely say it is because I am not a "player" and am not flirtatious enough to get a girl's heart.

Maybe I'm f*cked up with the way I look at the world. Maybe my childhood has f*cked me over. But I won't blame any of it. I believe when things are meant to be, then they are meant to be, and if not, then it was never my destiny. I just hope that that special girl can come into my life pretty soon.


Thanks for hearing my rant haha. I guess it felt better?

It sounds like you've got a lot of stress right now!  I'd be popping a vein if I had so much trouble with my car, too!  So, here's a big hug, knowing that someone understands!  

On a practical side, as frustrating as it is, the only way to get any satisfaction from the damage is to take the tow company to small claims court.  You sound American, so that's what I'm guessing.  If in another country, you would have to check to see if there is something like a small claims court there.  Anyway, you can represent yourself, and the pictures you took will help.  Everyone denies everything.  Don't let it upset you...it's just the way things go.  But, of course, it will still upset you anyway.

Of course things will get better!  And, then they will get worse again.  Then it will get better again.  Life is full of ups and downs.  Big ups and big downs, sometimes.  So, hang in there!  Enjoy the good times, and just endure the bad times, there are more ups than downs, because that's the way it usually works, too.

You sound like you work very hard, and have good plans for the future.  So all you need to do now is just keep going!  

Another big hug, OK?  

Your mind can be your best friend or your enemy..

So cultivate positive thoughts and feelings to improve..

Best of luck

Big hug coming your way.  It really sounds like you need it.

Best of luck with everything

sweetie here is a huge hug....im sending u lots of positive energy good things will come your way...stay positive and great u will find that special someone...much love and huggies