I am really sick today and need some healing energy from anyone out there.  I have not slept since Sunday Morning  @ about 9 am.  I is now 10 am on Tuesday.  I have bi-polar disorder with manic depressive disorder, generalized anxiety disorder with major panic attacks and slight agoriphoria, when I dont sleep I get really nerveous and irritable and angry and cannot deal with my kids boy 15 girl 9 who started fussing this morning while trying to get ready for school which sent me on a bender trying to get my 15 yo boy out of the house after he tried slap me made him leave his sister alone.  He hit me twice in my pressure points I have one set on the front and one in set in the back from fibromyalgia which for those of you how do not know about this disease(well they dont call it a disease it is a condition "they" say)is that causes the nerves and muscles to cause you to have pain almost continually i feel like my skin is sore to the touch continually I cannot wear most clothing becasuse it hurts to have clothing touch my skin.  I feel like I have been beaten by a very strong man.  When he hit me in those spots I could not move for awhile because of the way the fibromyalgia does to the nerves in those bundles to cause the pain in the nerves to send out pain to all the arease the nerves that they control.  Every muscle of my body feels likes it has been worked out.  I feel that I need something to knock me out like valium or xanax but my stupid dr wont give them to me for the anxiety.  I hope I haven't been to much of a crybaby for the time being I just needed to type to someone and hope for a response because the hubby doesnt need to hear it when gets home from working 10 hour days.  Thank you for your comments in advance for well wishes and good harmony to me and my family.

Hello dixie_beauty_68,

((((((BIG HUGS)))))))

It's nice to meet you and I am sorry you are going through such a rough time. I too suffer with fibromyalgia and lupus. I'm here to give you a big hug and to send positive light energy to you. You may want to consider professional counsel for your son and yourself. I hope things get better for you soon and I will certainly keep you close. Please let us know how you are doing.

Gentle Hugs,

Julie

sweetie im sorry u are going thru this....here is a huge hug and hope u get better and lots of healing energy and positive energy...much love and huggies

Hi Dixie.   i am sorry to know what you are going through ...... may God give you currage and i pray to God for your speedy recovery
here is a big hug and lots of positive energy for you ..

Dixie Beauty,

I was curious to know how things are going now.  Been a couple of days, I hope you recieved lots of energy hugs.  If you need to talk send message.  I do not mind some venting, and please know that I do not think you are a cry baby.  In your post...you were just venting, healthy to do.   Does warm baths help your condition?  I was looking into the other therapies they are doing concerning your medical condition.  Seems like whirlpools, or those float tanks filled with warm water is helping people with fibromyalgia.  Patients were experiencing less loss of sleep which helped with their anxiety.  Hon, I would give you a great big hug right now...please take one via the internet. (((BEAR HUG)))  Psychotherapy helps with anxiety, for me anyways. I a nut too.   The best part if ya get one you don't like you can say...You Fired!! Just like the little fleas from "A Bug's Life".  And go on to one that really helps you.  For me my anxiety was due to severe PTSD.  Years ago I was blessed with a woman who helped me to find the roots, and work on my own coping methods.  Avoiding the triggers until I could process the feelings.  Holding my hand we walked through it. Until I was strong enough to do it on my own.  One out of countless, these people are rare.  I hope that one day you are able to have one enter your life.  Please do not get discouraged, your son is testing you.  Good old teens, who think that they rule the world, and nothing is going to stop them.  They know all after all, didn't you know? lol.  Bless you for your courage, to share.   These little things can add to the depression, the depression bring out the anxiety, the anxiety feeding the depression.  A nasty little cycle.  One day you will break.  Again another (((BEAR HUG))).  You are not alone.

Safe Journey