Holy wow, and thanks guys! I might actually have to try these out... I don't think I've ever even seen most of these ingredients before, but there's a first time for everything.

My school is insisting that I remain enrolled and that I return on Monday... (odd, but atleast my boss moved me to night shift today also....Hmmm, fate working in my favor...?) so I walk to work after school. My teacher showed up again today, and this this time he took up a collection among the teachers for me (on the spur of the moment of course) and I about passed out counting the money... He also informed me that there was more help that I could access, but had to maintain Enrollment (hence the going back on Monday) in school, and that there was alot more help from other's in the community to come. I think I like small rural towns... 'cause if Mum had passed in Gainesville... I doubt anyone would have helped us... I was also told that The funeral home was coerced into allowing payments... so Mum gets cremated soon. Thanks soooooo much to whoever did that, maybe I can get to sleep at night now. (good sleep anyway.)

I did designate today as a "I gotta take a freakin' break today" Day. Which it was (mostly) as there is no such thing as a real day off anymore... Everything is gonna be alright though... Except....

A snag in getting Custody of Johnny... I need any remaining parents to approve... which means my Father (whom I haven't talked to since Mum's divorce) needs to be contacted and approve. Good news: That's been done by Jenny already... Bad news: Jenny rescinded the No Contact Order placed on him. Under normal circumstance that would be fine, but the order was placed for a reason. That's something I'll save for later, though. The HRS/DCF/CPS (I can't decide which acronym to use) worker on my side of things told me that he sent a letter to me (which means he has my address) which I'm not entirely sure I'm ready for yet. And I told the Worker as much, and she said that he would understand. Hmmm... maybe he's changed since then... maybe not... the nature of his offense is generally acknowledged as being an incurable mental illness... lets hope they're wrong. I pray they are wrong. Atleast I know he's not allowed to leave the state he lives in, a small bit of solace. Hmmm....

He did agree to pay Child support on Johnny still, and even try to help me some (we'll see). But I guess I'll see what happens next on this one, hmmmm...... only time will tell.

Everything else is going well though and for that I'm thankful,
Tim

That's so sad and I'm sorry.  You are so young.   Much love and mega prayers to you and your family!

K

What hurts us only make us stronger. Everything is going to plan, trust your instincts and you will be fine .
Cheers Pete

Lots of hugs and blessings dear Tim I am sorry to hear of your loss hun xxxxxxxxhugsxxxxxxxxx

OK Tim,

You started out positive!!!!!!!!  GOOD FOR YOU!!!!!!!!!

Kepp the positive!!!!

You need to stay in school. Yes being moved to nights, is a BIG sign.
Use it. You will be tired, but this is what needs to happen.

Don't go negative on on your Father yet. Go back and read what you just wrote.
Everything you said, is VERY positive for you.

Your person said in your words, he understands, he's willing to pay the support.
Your set.

Do some breathing and meditating. Get a great nights sleep.

Your in the drivers seat man, keep it.

Lots of love to you.

M2/3/4/5/6/7/8/9/ect.... Karlene